AYANDA: Another Chance At Love

Chapter 37

I sit on the closed toilet seat, I'm defeated, I don't understand how I could be so irresponsible especially knowing the situation between Nathi and I. I mean just when I thought I could finally get over this guy and move on then this happens?

Now I'm stuck between telling him or just raising this child on my own, I mean this man is someone's husband and he's already expecting a baby with Amahle so why would I tell him? this will ruin their marriage, I should maybe keep it to myself and just raise the baby on my own.

I'm brought back to reality when I hear wami laughing from her nursery, I guess they're back from the park. I gather the tests then leave the bathroom, I put them in a draw in my room then head downstairs, my baby is so happy to see me. We spend the rest of the day together watching cartoons and YouTube videos, then I braided her hair as usual she fell asleep in the process.

I finally got a chance to sit on my own and actually think about the situation at hand, how will I tell my parents and my sisters that I'm pregnant? I mean they know that I haven't been in a relationship since Muzi so obviously they'll want to know who the father is, I know my mum would be very disappointed in me.

I decide to order a seafood platter for 1 then go upstairs to my room to enjoy it before I retire to sleep.

*a month later*
Today is Friday and my mum's birthday, my sisters said we should all surprise her by going to spend the weekend home with them but I'm not very much excited about it, my belly is obviously not visible as yet but I do get morning sickness here and there and certain types of food make me sick but hopefully I can suck it up for the weekend, it can't be that bad.

The drive home was long probably because I'm so exhausted and I just want to sleep, as usual, lately all I ever want to do is eat and sleep.

It's 2pm when I get home and wami is asleep, her nanny has already packed for her so I let her leave while I decide to try and clean up a bit in my room then pack so that we can leave.

We drive home with princess being very grumpy since I disturbed her sleep, she literally only lightened up when she saw me parking and realised where we are, she's best friends with her grandparents there's no doubt about that.

We walk in and find my parents all cosy and lovey dovey, it's amazing to see them this way, this gives me hope for my own dead love life.

"sanbona ekhaya" I greet as I roll in the trolley bag, the princess is already in mum's arms and it's as if mum doesn't even notice me shame, dad helps me get everything inside the house. I walk towards my bedroom. My two younger sisters share a room, Thembi has a back room outide then I have my own room inside the house.

I change into a free flowing comfortable dress, well for obvious reasons, one thing about old people is that they can perform a free pregnancy test but struggle with loading airtime, so I don't want to find myself being diagnosed by my mother then end up ruining the whole weekend.

I stay in my room until all my sisters arrive, they practically all pile up in my room and we just catch up while playing some music, I don't know where Owami and my mother went but I'm just glad that I finally get some time to myself and just enjoy catching up with my sisters.

"asambeni siyothenga iBev Hawu guys" Mbali suggests, "Haiibo guys, uzothini nje ubaba" lungelo, the sweetheart of the family asks, we burst in laughter and roll our eyes because we all expected that from her. Eventually we convinced her then we went to buy alcohol but I made an excuse that my baby is still being breastfed, knowing very well that this is a complete lie to cover up for what's growing inside of me.

We spent the rest of the evening chilling and just catching up, mum prepared dinner, I decided to ditch dinner and just have an early night, my mum agreed to bring wami to bed once she's asleep.

The next morning I woke up, tidied up the room a bit, opened the curtains and my baby woke up but the first thing she asked for was my mother and didn't even pay attention to me, how sad is this Mara. I carry her and we go out to the kitchen, my mum is already up singing and preparing breakfast.

"morning ma, nangu umuntu uvuka efuna wena nje" she chuckle "morning Aya, nilale kahle?"she asks while signaling to carry wami. I take this opportunity to go and freshen up.

I wash my face, brush my teeth and change into a dress. Walking back I find all my sisters sitting around the dinning table ready to eat," Thatha udlise umntana"my mum hands me a bowl of brown porridge," mabele"as how we call it, growing up I used to hate this type of porridge and my mum used to prepare it for us, I hated it to a point where I'd even vomit.

I mix it for princess and start feeding her but she seems less interested in the porridge but more on the plate of English breakfast that's in front of me, she starts devouring my sausage then eggs, this porridge oddly smells amazing today, I give it a try and my oh my I felt my taste buds dancing.

Before I knew it, I had finished the whole bowl of porridge. "Haiibo since when?" Mbali looks at me then back at the porridge bowl, now one thing about my younger sister, her voice is loud and demands attention so my mum turned to see what mbali was referring to, she immediately gave me a concerned look, and in that instance I broke down....