Unexpectedly Attached To You

Chapter 24

I asked Anthony to bring me home. Hindi ko pa kaya na makihalu-bilo sa tao because in the span of less than 24 hours, I found out I had a brother, a company I could potentially inherit, and that my boyfriend just basically cheated on me with the only girl I've ever disliked.

So it was just a game? Was that all planned?

"Madam, may package po kayo." Someone said on the other side of my bedroom door. Hindi ako gumalaw. I didn't care about who was out there. Ayokong maki-pagusap kahit kanino. But unfortunately, hindi ko pala nai-lock ang pintuan ko.

"I framed our pictures from yesterday." Natutuwang sabi ni Trixy. I saw Sky hold her back probably noticing my tear stained face.

"Anong nangyari?" He asked in a careful voice.

"Chaos." I smiled bitterly as another tear managed to escape my eye.

They both sat by my side waiting for me to say something without forcing anything out of me.

"I have a younger brother." Umpisa ko. "And I caught Noah kissing Xelene."

Nagulat sila pero wala silang sinabi. Nahihiya ako. Sobra. They warned me multiple times na sa huli ako ang masasaktan. Pero pumasok pa'din ako sa relasyon knowing that. Akala ko lang iba pag dating saakin. Akala ko magtatagal. Hindi pa ako ready. It's too soon.

The three of us just sat in silence, all probably trying to absorb the information I just spilled.

Hindi din naman siguro nila kung anong sasabihin saakin para gumaan ang pakiramdam ko. Hindi ko rin naman alam kung anong gusto kong marinig ngayon.

Soon, Trixy started asking about how I caught the two. Kaya inexplain ko naman agad. I didn't want to tell her a lot dahil alam ko na may namamagitan sakanlang dalawa ng kapatid ni Noah. But Sky wanted to know the exact story. So that is what I told.

After telling the story, Trixy started trying to change the mood. She has always been a funny girl kaya hindi na mahirap para sakaniya na pabaliktadin ang nararamdaman ko kahit sa sandaling panahon lang. And we stayed like that until both Trxiy and Sky had to go home.

They wanted to stay with me for longer pero nag-insist ako na umuwi na sila. Alam ko na pagod sila at kanina pa hinahanp si Trixy sa bahay nila. I assured them that I was okay. Kahit gusto ko silang mag-stay pa, gusto ko din na mapag-isa.

Can any of this get any worse?

As I was alone in my room, all the thoughts came rushing in. Kung kanina manhid ako at blanko ang isip ko, ngayon baliktad. All I felt was a stinging pain in my chest that got worst with every breath I took. Sobrang daming tanong na gumugulo sa isip ko as I rewatched Noah and Xelene kissing in his room in my head over and over again. It was like torture for me pero hindi ko na mapigilan. We were too deep into the situation that even forgiving seemed impossible. Moving on seemed impossible.

Suddenly, me meeting Theo wasn't such a big deal for me anymore. Sobrang bigat ng bagsak saakin ng ginawa ni Noah that accepting Theo into my life was made easy.

I've never longed for a younger sibling dahil naging sapat na para saakin ang kuya ko. But now I have one, gusto kong maging ate para sakaniya but there was somethong pushing me away from doing that. Siguro dahil kakakilala ko palang sakaniya but that thought was nicely rested in the back of my mind. I should give it time. I should give Theo some time, myself some time.

Time may be the answer to my question of identity pero mababago ba ng time ang fact na niloko ako? No, it won't. Kahit makalimutan ko pa o makalimutan nila lahat, it won't erase the scenes that just happened. Even if the world was turned upside down, maloloko at maloloko pa'din ako.