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You arrived in Shiganshina with a total of over 500 Scouts. You left Shiganshina with a total of 8 scouts including yourself. 11 people in total. Hange, Erwin and Levi being the additional 3. You left with the thought that you all had managed to take back Shiganshina. At the cost of over 400 lives.
Arriving back in the safe sanctuary of the walls that still stood was something dreaded. Numerous people pleading to know where they son/daughter/husband/sister/brother were. The backlash from the people was awful, to a point where it was hard to tune out. They started with awful nicknames and it was fine until they started to direct the name calling towards Erwin.
"Murder!" One said
"Selfish bastard" another said
"You're not fit to lead the scouts!" Another said.
"You killed my child." One cried. You halted your horse to an abrupt stop. That was enough. You heard enough.
"Listen up you useless shits!" You exploded. Erwin and Levi Halted their horses a few feet away. The crowd of people fell silent. Erwin's drained eyes met yours. "How fucking dare you sit in the sanctuary of these walls hiding like COWARDS while we go out there in the dangers of this word to fight for it back so YOU worthless worms can live free of fear! You don't get to attack the commander for fighting for your freedom. The name calling? The disrespect..." you shook your head. "None of you would last a day out there. So shame on you for attacking the ones who were lucky enough to surpass it."
"Y/n-" Levi spoke once you finished. You exhaled trying to catch your breathe and calm your nerves.
""No captain, I'm tired of people talking down on us scouts....." you turned your attention back to the crowd "The commander is doing the best he can to make a difference for you. Give him credit." You concluded as you snapped your reins gently to your horse giving it the okay to pick up a walk once more. Your passed Levi and Erwin and you continued your direction towards the scouts stables. You arrived shortly after hopping off your horse and quickly removing its tack.
"Y/n." Captain Levi's voice spoke form behind you. You walked your horse to its stable and released it closing the door once it entered. You turned to see Levi.
"Yes sir?" You huffed as you felt the exhausting overwhelm your body.
"I'm sorry I didn't try to stop him... I don't know what was going through my head." Levi began straining on his words as if it were hard to admit it. "I didn't think it'd actually happen, I thought he'd cheat death as he always did, I-" you cut him off
"Sir you're tired. You're rambling. You never ramble. Nevermind that. Sir it's okay, he's still here with us thankfully. Let's not take advantage of that." You sent him a sly smile. "Now if you'll excuse me, I'm very tired as well and I've got a commander to go see" you finished as you walked pasted him just as the remaining scouts entered with their horses.
You walked through the quiet hallway towards the commanders room. You approached it sending a small knock before entered. You were greeted with Erwin sitting at the edge of the bed with his face in his hands as he was bent forward. He made no effort to raise his head to look at who entered. Maybe he knew it was you.
"I'm so sorry" Erwin choked out as he held back tears. Your shoulders dropped as you approached the bed and stood in front of Erwin. You knelt down sitting on your knees. You rose your hands to grab his to part them from his face making him look at you. His eyes lay red and his face stood tired. "I'm. So. Sorry" he said again letting out a shaky sob.
Your heart hurt to see him like this. He was a mess. You placed your hands onto his cheeks wiping his tears with your thumbs.
"I'm here." You spoke again reassuring him you weren't going anywhere. No matter the circumstances. He exhaled in relief as he pulled you up from the ground and wrapped himself around you holding you close. As night went on with the smallest exchange of words between you and Erwin. He fell asleep on your arms not long after. You managed to slip out from under Erwin.
You waited a few minutes to make sure he didn't wake before making your way out of his room and down the hall. You entered a dimly lit and empty mess hall where you planted yourself on one of the benches. Your eyes stared off into the blankness until they started to sting greatly. You quickly brought your hand up to your face to touch your cheek. You pulled it back and your eyes landed on your damp finger. You were crying.
You scoff right before you let yourself break unintentionally. You shoved your face into the palms of your hands to silent your sobs so they wouldn't echo the large mess hall. You inhaled a sob when you heard distant footsteps from the hall you entered from minutes ago. You quickly wiped your tears and did your best to hide the fact you were in the middle of a breakdown. You turned your head to see the shadow appear before the person.
"Hello?" The voice called out right before they entered the mess hall as well. Thankfully it was none other than Jean. You exhaled and relaxed your shoulders when your eyes greeted him. "Why aren't you sleeping?"
"I couldn't." You shrugged your shoulders as you got up from the seat and planted yourself on the tabletop bringing your knees to your chest, wrapping your arms around your bent legs. Jean started to approach you and his eyes instantly met your red, swollen ones.
"Are you okay?" He asked and just hearing that question made your lip quiver. Lately you had been so fragile and vulnerable. You hated it. You hated being a weak person but your brain was just absolutely overwhelmed. You shook your head as You blinked another set of tears. Jean hopped onto the table top next to you quickly wrapping his arms around your huddled body. "Do you wanna talk about it?"
"No, please. I can't go through it again." Jean had thought you meant of the occurrence with Erwin today. Not of zeke. Not of what he tried to do to you.
"Is The commander doing okay?" He asked after a few moments of silence. You sniffled and nodded and you dropped your head on his shoulder.
"Are you okay?" You asked bringing yourself to look up at Jean.
"Of course. I mean- still trying to process everything that happened today but I'm okay." He smiled lightly and nodded. "I'm just more glad I didn't lose you after all the crazy stunts you pulled today" he rolled his eyes placing his chin on top of your head. You breathed a chuckled and rolled your eyes.
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You're Something Special, Cadet. Erwin X Reader
Fanfiction*UNDER HEAVY EDITING* It's the classic. You are the normal young girl who had the heart to join the scout regiment, to make a change. You weren't top of your class, you weren't great at any of the areas you needed to be but you were determined to ma...
