𝐓𝐨𝐠𝐞𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 | 𝐀𝐫𝐦𝐢𝐧 𝐀𝐫𝐥𝐞𝐫𝐭

Chapter Twenty-One

Time has passed since Armin last visited me, in that time my eye, or I guess just the socket since my eye is now gone.

It has healed enough to take my bandages off, and for the first time today, I saw how I looked with one eye.

I cover my mouth while trying to hide the ugly sobs coming out my mouth, I look hideous.

I take my hand and let it hover over my right eye that is no longer there, trying to cover the mistake that is now on me permanently. The skin leading up to my right eye is scarred a different color and my eye is just a hole.

I smile and place my hair over my eye trying to look as normal as I can, but it's not working I still look ugly.

The one thing I thought I could fall back on was my looks, and now I look terrible who would ever want to have a friend that looks like that?

Armin would be disgusted to see me like this. I am disgusted to see me like this, it's true kindness doesn't get you shit. All because I tried to help Eren, I lost my eye.

"Adelita?" I hear from behind me I quickly turn my back to the cell and lower my head, my hair falling over my face.

"Adelita, why are you backwards?" He asks as I hear his footsteps come closer to my cell, I try to answer him back but all I can let out are ugly sobs.

My voice betrayed me.

"Are you alright? Come on. Talk to me we are friends."

He pleads from the other side of the bars; I shake my head and continue to cry.

"I'm hideous!" I shout loudly, keeping my head to the ground I probably caught him off guard with the tone of my voice.

"What? I don't understand, why would you say that?"

He asks with his sweet voice I could just feel his eyes on me, how I wish I could look into them, but I would terrify him.

"They took my bandages off Armin; I saw my eye... and there is nothing... I'm deformed, Armin!"

I scream while grabbing at my hair and sliding my back against the cell bars, Armin doesn't say anything and its silence.

"No, I refuse to believe that. You... couldn't ever be hideous... well to me at least."

I feel something rubbing my back I soon realize it's Armin's hand, he is trying to comfort me.

"And besides, it reminds you of how brave you are. You did something half of the people here wouldn't be able to do, I mean I don't think I could ever be that brave."

I sigh and shake my head. "No. I'm not Annie, I'm not pretty like her, I'm not brave like her, and she actually has two eyes."

I say while chuckling at the end, I feel Armin's hand stop he doesn't move or say anything.

"You're right, you aren't Annie and you'll never be Annie."

He tells me I feel as if tears threaten to fall out of my eye, he just admitted I'll never be good enough because I am not her.

"And that's what makes you better than Annie. You are Adelita, not her. And I think you need to realize that, stop comparing yourself to Annie."

My whole life was about Annie, never was I able to pull apart from her and I always blamed that on her. But it was never Annie it was me; I was always stuck on her. I always compared her to me even now when she's not even here.

"I don't know how your eye looks, but I bet it looks beautiful... because that's how you look."

I can feel as my face heats up, hiding my face in my hands.

"You don't have to lie," I tell Armin he quickly fights me to respond back.

"No! I am not! Just believe me okay! I don't care about Annie, your eye, or your past Adelita! All I care about is you because you are... my friend. And I bet Mikasa, Eren, Krista, Ymir... Marco. They would say the same they don't care how you look because they care about you."

Whenever Armin talks, I get this feeling, it's nice and warm and makes me feel happy. I guess it's because I am so happy, I have a friend.

"Armin."

"Yes?"

I turn around keeping my head to the ground but now having my back away from the front of the cell, I quickly look for Armin's hand with my one eye.

Once I see it, I grab it with my hand I see as Armin jumps, I squeeze his hand.

"Thank you... thank you for making me feel better, I've never had someone who has tried this hard to make me feel pretty."

I feel him place my head up from the ground, my left eye meeting Armin's eyes my hair still covers my right eye. I don't think I'm ready yet to let him see it, but when he sees that I finally made eye contact with him and lifted my eye to his.

He places the biggest smile on his face his cheeks flushed red.

He squeezes my hand back.

"It's what friends are for."

If you're my friend, why do I feel so funny, do friends feel this way for each other? I never felt like this for Marco, I don't understand it.

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Okay, these chapters were just filler, the next chapter will be in season 2! I pray I will get that chapter out in about a day tops, it's just so much going on right now but it's okay because I would never leave my stories hanging. Also I can't remember if I already said this but Krista may be spelled Christa sometimes because sometimes I forget how I spell it...

-lei <3