𝐓𝐨𝐠𝐞𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 | 𝐀𝐫𝐦𝐢𝐧 𝐀𝐫𝐥𝐞𝐫𝐭

Chapter Sixty-Five

Upon hearing Armin's beliefs, I haven't been able to stand straight at the thought of Annie finally being freed. The thought that I could be walking with her right behind me scares me.

I've come to terms with how I feel about Annie, but it was easier to speak all those feelings out when she was in a coma-like state.

Grabbing onto Armin's hand I look down to Gabi, "we'll get you Falco back. He must be special."

The young girl smiles wiping her tears and coming closer to thank me, but Armin pushes her back while pushing me away.

"No. Adelita, you leave. Mikasa and you leave to get ready we need to get moving, I'll retrieve the boy."

I stare back at Armin in confusion. "No. I want to go with you, I'll be helpful."

Shaking his head, he answers back to me with, "Just go to the care unit. Get your wounds taken care of and calm down."

"Calm down? I am calm."

He gives me a look and I just ignore it.

"I'm going," I tell him as I go for the door, Armin grabs my hand stopping me once again.

"I know Annie being free must've shaken you up."

"You don't know that," I argue back to him while yanking my hand back.

"Now, I am going to Ragako. I don't care what you say."

I go to reach the door my hand turning the knob as a shout stops me.

"Adelita! You can't go, are you thinking with only part of your brain?! Oh, I know it's tainted with the thought of Annie being out. Walls! Can you just let her go for once, it's been how long, and you still haven't gotten over it! She probably never even cared about you!"

My face drops as those words left his mouth, I can't even think before I decide to say something that I'll forever regret.

"Captain Levi was wrong. Commander Erwin should be here, not you."

Opening the door, I slam it shut not waiting to hear his response, do I regret saying that already?

Yes, I hit Armin somewhere where it hurts, I stooped so low for no reason only for the goal to hurt him.

I already want to turn around and open the door to apologize to him.

I don't.

Instead of walking to where he told me to go the whole time thinking about what he said to me.

Did he mean it?

Does he hate me now?

I wipe the tears that have escaped my eyes, continuing to the area of resting where the hurt soldiers go.

Once I arrive, I walk immediately into the bathroom locking the door as I begin to cry out.

I lose composure of my body, and I fall to the ground as I bring my knees up to my chest and just let it all out. I feel like shit, and the person I love more than I could ever love myself probably hates me.

He's going to break up with me.

I can't take this war anymore; I can't take being here anymore everything is pointless.

Whatever you do is always the wrong choice you can't keep everyone happy.

Every person is the enemy in someone's eyes and vice versa.

I just want it to end.

I cover my face and begin to cry even harder, wishing I was just young again. Wishing I could just be a child again and ignorant of all the wrong in this world like how I used to be.