Confessions

Chapter 41..

Instead of going back to my house, and having to deal with a million questions I end up driving to emma's house. I haven't seen her in weeks, which feels like forever. I can't stop thinking of what Alex said to me. He said Matt doesn't care about me. I want to believe he is lying, I should know that he's lying. It's just that, how he said it, he made it sound like he was being serious. But, of course he's lying, he has to be. Right? I shake the thoughts out of my head, and arrive at emma's. I hope she doesn't mind me, stopping by. I hate arriving places unexpected, but I just really need someone to talk to. I get out of my car, and walk up to her door. I knock lightly on the door, and immediately she answers.

"Hey, I choke. I can feel the tears beginning to form in my eyes. She opens the door, and her arms are around me in seconds.

"I miss him." I sob, and she hugs me tighter.

Matthew's P.O.V~

8 days, it has been 8 days. I don't know how much longer I can handle this. I mean I respect that she needed a break form this, us. But how much longer does she need? I don't want to get used to this, I don't want to feel like this is a normal routine. I don't want to forget about her. Were graduating in 3 months, what am I going to do if she does't forgive me by then? I'm not leaving her like that, let alone leaving her at all. I just want to simply talk to her, I want to talk to her about everything thats going on, we don't have to yell or scream, just simply talk. I feel like thats what we need, we need to talk though our problems. I just wish she would give me the opportunity to. I put in my headphones, and listen to music until I fall asleep, if I can sleep.

The next morning, I got up feeling like shit, I don't even want to get out of bed. But I have already missed enough work, so I get up and grab my clothes. I grab a black t-shirt and a pair of jeans. Once i'm done I slip on my shoes and make my way outside to my car. I get in and start it. I start to drive, and make a loop around my neighbor hood when all of a sudden I find my self parked outside Maddie's house. What the hell is wrong with me? She doesn't want me anymore, so why do I even try? I drive away, and head to school, once I'm there I get out and walk towards the door. When I head to my locker I can already see ashley standing there waiting for me. Fucking christ.

"What do you want?" I growl.

"Your aren't going to thank me?" She grins.

"For what? For ruining my life?" I spit.

"Wow someones in a bad mood, She laughs.

"I was going to say, your welcome cause she's not in your life anymore, thats what you wanted right?" She smirks reaching for my arm. I take her hand and move off mine.

"No, that's not what I wanted! Hooking up with you in the beginning, was the worst fucking thing I have ever done." I spit. And shut my locker, leaving her standing there. I sling my bag over my shoulder, and head to my class. I am aware of how many people are staring at me, but right now I don't give a shit.

As I'm walking to my class, I can see Maddie talking to emma. I don't know if I should ignore her, or go over there to see her, and make an attempt to talk to her. I make eye contact with her, but she quickly looks away and down to the floor. Emma turns around and looks at me with sympathy. I walk away and make my way to Math.

Maddie's P.O.V~

"I don't know what I'm supposed to do," I whine. I don't want to be here, I wan't to go home, and sleep.

"Maddie, if you miss him why don't you make an attempt to talk to him about it?" She questions.

"It's not that easy, there's so many things that happened I just can't seem to let go of, I want to forgive him, I really do but it's hard." I explain. The bell rings, now I'm late to class.