Confessions

Chapter 45

Here's the songs for this chapter(:

-Without a word~ Birdy

-Tattooed Heart~Ariana Grande

-Something Great~One direction

-Broken ones~Jaciquee Lee

Breath me~Sia

Btw this chapter may be sexual at the ending so if you don't like that kind of thing then you can skip it. And no they don't have actual sex.... not yet(; 

but they do some things so yeahhhh enjoy. 

One more thing if you are, 12 or younger I wouldn't recommend you read that at all because you may not understand but for anything you really shouldn't read my book in general.

ENJOY THE CHAPTER:)

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"Matt." I sob and run over to him and embrace him in a hug. He laughs to himself as he hugs me and twirls me around in his arms. This moment brings back so many amazing memories but yet so many horrible ones. But i'm trying to be happy, and positive. 

"Put me down!" I squeal. He laughs and refuses to put me down. 

"Matt!"I laugh. He runs around, with me on his back. And surprisingly its much more fun then it was last time. He brings me to a pacific part on the beach and then tells em to cover my eyes.

"Again?" I question.

"Yup, he says and slides me off his back. He guides me over to where my next "surprise" is.

"Ok, open your eyes." He says and I oblige. When I do I see a long blanket with four candles around it and a basket. My eyes start to water again, and I hug him. Today has been hell with everything happening at school. But right now nothing could ruin it because, he has made it so much better. I know we had just gotten back together, but thats not the point. The point is that, he is making an effort to treat me better, an which I appreciate.

"I know, we just got back together but I want to prove to you, that I can be the one for you. The only one." He says kissing my forehead. I swear this boy, can read my mind. 

"It's perfect, I say kissing him. We both sit down on the blanket and he starts going through the picnic basket and grabbing two sandwiches from subway and I start to laugh. 

"Hey, would you like it to be made professionally or made by me?" He laughs. 

"True." I giggle. We both start to eat, and I find myself feeling uncomfortable. I don't know why now, all of a sudden I can't eat in front of him. I don't want to seem like that basic girl who just plainly "doesn't eat" because I do eat... a lot. But for some reason I feel anxious.

"What's wrong?" Do you not like it? He asks.

"No no, it's fine I just, I don't know." I shake my head.

"C'mon tell me." He urges me.

"No really it's nothing." I excuse it.

"Maddie." He presses.

"Ok, ok don't laugh at me." I say.

"Fine ok I won't." He promises.

"OK, well I just feel intimidated by you I guess?" I question my own answer.

"What do you mean?" He asks.

"For some reason I'm just feeling weird, like I can't eat infront of you." I admit and cover my face.