Confessions

Chapter 44..

Hey guys, almost every time I'm writing i'm always listening to music, so I thought every chapter that I write i'm going to put a list of songs that I listen to so yah enjoy.

You and I~One Direction

Nothing Like us~Justin Bieber

Teen Idle~Marina and the Diamonds

Just a little bit of your heart~Ariana Grande

People Help the people~Birdy 

Best thing I never had~Beyoncè

ENJOY THE CHAPTER (:

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Maddie's P.O.V~

I stood there with an odd feeling. What the hell was she talking about? Matt would never do that, he told me that he would never hurt me like that ever again. I don't understand why he would do it again, yes I know I forgive him a lot and always go running back to him. But it's not my fault, if you love some one who obviously loves you it's hard to let them go. I shouldn't let this bother me, Matt despises her. I need to focus on just me and Matt right now, I need to know what were doing about the whole college thing. What are we going to do? I love him to much to give him up so quickly, even though we didn't talk or even see each other for 9 days. I never want to go back to that case with Matt, it was a depressing time. It didn't feel like only 9 days, that we hadn't seen each other it felt like months went by, It was hell for me and him. I push back my thoughts for now and enter in the classroom, I take a seat in one of the desks and take out my things.  I have always loved english class, writing is so soothing. 

"Alright class, today we will be studying symbols. Yes I know you don't exactly learn about this method until college, if you take literature but I feel its an important thing to learn about. So lets get started." The teacher takes out a piece of paper, and begins to read off of it. 

"Before we begun, all of you take out a piece of paper and something to write with." Everyone does what she says, and waits for the next direction. 

"Faith, what does it mean to you? Do you have faith in your self? Do you have faith in another human being or objects? Can you trust that human or object? Do you think faith has a different meaning?" She says. 

"Don't over think, just write what you think. This will not be graded just practice." She reminds us. I sit at my desk, thinking. Thinking about what I should write. I begin to write, 

Faith. Faith can be used in many ways. You can have faith in anyone, it could be a human being it could be an object. Faith is not given naturally when wanted, it is earned. Faith must be earned by the others being. You need to show them, your faith. You need to show them that they can have faith in you. Don't expect to receive it with out trying or working for it. Because I'm defiantly sure you will not recive it without trying. 

Once I'm done writing the bell has wrung, and I am off to my next class. I head to my locker to grab my bag for gym, once I have everything I shut my locker and a person appears. I sigh in disgust when I find who it is. Chris. 

"Hey." He smirks. I ignore him and flip my gym bag on my shoulder. 

"Ooh playing hard to get I see, I like that." He says standing in front of me. 

"I'm not playing hard to get, I don't want to be near you or even see you. You disgust me, I don't even want you to look at me now move." I snap. 

"Oh c'mon I know you want me." He laughs, continuing to follow me. 

"I said stop talking to me, and I happen to be already in a relationship so your out if luck, and by the way I wouldn't want to be with someone who basically tried to rape me and video tape it if I may add. Dating you was the worst decision I had ever made in my entire life, I have never met someone so disgusting and worthless in my entire life. So if you would excuse me, I have other people to waste my time with other than you." When I push past him, he stands there with the stupidest look on his face. I feel proud of my self for once, I need to stick up for my self more often. I will not go back to that shy girl, with too many cuts and bruises and not enough courage and confidence. I am done with people pushing me around and always making me feel like I am less then they are.