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Chp 22

Matthewes P.O.V

Why did I say that? Why did I do that? I ask myself. I'm so fucking stupid. She may even fall for Robert. My subconscious mocks me. I shout on the top of my lungs and punch the wall. The blood trips down my knuckles. I need to just leave. I think to my self. I get in my car, and start driving home when I realized that my friend is having a party, I turn my car around and head to his house.

1 hour later~

Robert and I are our to lunch and we are laughing our buts off. I can't stop laughing, we started talking about, life, what we might be doing in the future, to be talking about his grandmother going to a club and getting drunk while dancing on a table. I have to dab the corner of my eyes with a napkin cause I was laughing so hard I got tears in my eyes. After lunch we head back to the car. "That was fun." I smile. "Yea it was." He says. "So that do you want to do now?" I ask. "Um movie?" He suggests. "Yea that would be good." I say. He starts the car and we head to the movies.

Matthew's P.O.V-

I get to the party and there are teenagers every where with red cups in there hands. My friend comes up to me. "Hey man glad you could make it." He says. "Yea." We both head in into the house, and all I see is people making out, drinking, and grinding and dancing on each other. "Hey man you want a drink?" My friend Alex asks me. "Nah I'm good." I answer. "Awe come on just one." He insists. "Fine, but only one."

2 hours later.

"That movie was really good." I say. "I agree." Robert says. We both get in the car. "Today was really fun." I tell him. "I know right, I'm pretty fun to hang out with." He smirks. We both break into laughter. He starts the car and drive to my house. A few minutes later we arrive at my house we get out and Robert walks me to the door. "I had a really fun time today." I say. "I feel the same way." He smiles. "Thank you for taking me out." I really needed it." I say which is really true. "Oh no problem, anytime." He assures me. "Well thanks again." I say and hug him. "Good night Maddie." He says. "Goodnight Robert." I smile. I walk into my house and I see my mom standing there with her hands on her hips. I didn't even see her car.. Oops. "Where have you been all day!" She scolds. "I have been calling your phone none stop!" And you wouldn't answer. " she yells. "And just because Im not home doesn't me you get to just go anywhere you want!" She shouts. "What am I supposed to do, stay here be bored to death?!" I shout. "Do not raise your voice at me." She scolds me. "Your never here!" "I'm always by my self, your never here, if you were here maybe I would be out all the time!" I yell. " I just want someone who will be there for me!" No one is ever here for me." I'm all alone!" I sob. And run up the stairs to my room. I hear my mother shouting my name to come down stairs. I shut the door and lock it. I grab my blade and slide across my wrists, the blood trails down my arm and drips on the hard wood floor. I fall to the ground and pull my knees to my chest and just sob.

Matthews P.O.V~

Before I knew it I was drinking like crazy. I can barely see anything. It was all busy. I notice 2 girls sitting on my lap wearing short skirts and way to much makeup but I don't feel like pushing them off. "Hey there." The girl turns around and putts her hand agents my chest. "Do you want to go have some fun up stairs." She says. Tracing her finger down my chest. "Come on." She says pulling my hand. I push the other girl off of me and push a side the other girl off me. She scoffs at me and flips me off but I don't do anything. I go to find Alex to see if he can drive me home. "Hey man." I slur. "Do I know you?" The guy asks. "Oh sorry I thought you were someone else." I apologize. I finally spot him, and he's making our with a girl. Great. "Hey dude?" I ask. He stops what he's doing. "Yea was up?" I ask. "Um do you think you could drive me home?" "The party just got started, why do you want to leave?" He asks. "Because I feel like I'm going to throw up." I explain. "Sorry dude Im on the edge of getting drunk I can't drive. "Fuck!" I curse. I walk away, when all of a sudden I see a familiar face. Ashly. "Hey matt." She says looking me up and down, which makes me want to throw up all over her dress. "Not now Ashly." I snap. "Oh come on, you know you want to." She says grabbing my arm. "Stop get off of me." I growl. "Don't be such a dick, you know what I can do." She threatens. I glare at her and walk out side. The cool crisp air hits my face and it feels amazing. I start walking down the drive way on to the road. I guess I'm waking home.

About 30 min later.

I finally stop crying. I check out the window and find out that my mother had left. And she wonders why I leave. Fucking bitch. I grab my phones and my head phones and just block out all the sound around me and just concentrate on the song. When all of a sudden I hear a tap on the window.

Authors note~

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