Confessions

Chapter 30

Maddie's P.O.V~

When I wake up Matt is holding me tight around my waist and is snuggled into my neck.

I poke his nose, and his eyes flutter open.

"Good morning sleepy head." I smile.

"Good morning beautiful." he smiles.

"What time is it?" he asks.

"9:30." I answer him.

"Ughhh." he groans.

"Come on we have to go get breakfast, and then go to the mall and get things."

"Like what." he groans.

"I don't know, things." I laugh.

"Oh very specific." He mocks me.

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Once were all done getting dressed we head down stairs to get some breakfast.

We all grab a plate, and I grab some yogurt, pancakes, and an omelet.

The three of us take a seat at a table and start eating.

"So when does the concert start again?" Matt asks.

"7:30." Emma responds.

"But we have to leave around 6:45, cause it takes like 45 minutes to get there." She clarafies.

"Ok." i respond.

An hour of talking and eating, finally we are done.

By the time we get back up to our hotel, it is 10:30. So we all get ready for the mall. Matt insists on taking a shower, which adds another 30 minitues, so we don't leave until 11:00.

We finally get into the car, and Matt drives us there. 10 minutes later, we arrive at the mall, and we all get out and head in. Once we get in, I notice that we are in macy's and I remember that Christmas is not that far away, so I decide to look around the room for some things.

"We need to go to forever 21." Emma instructs.

"Can I stay here, and meet you guys somewhere when your done?, I have to get a few things in here." Matt says.

"Ok." Emma and I agree.

3 hours later~

All 3 of get in the car, and start driving back to the hotel, to just relax until the concert.

The car ride was quite, but i think its just because were tired from spending 3 hours at the mall.

A few minutes later, I feel Matt's hand rest on my thigh. I smile at him and he returns it.

We finally arrive at our hotel, and head up stairs.

"So what do we do now?" I ask.

"We could go to the pool?" Matt suggests.

"Sure." I agree.

Emma and I go into the bathroom to change, but Emma finishes first so she tells me that shes going down stairs and we will meet her down there.

About a few minutes later, I come out of the bathroom with my bathing suit on. I look at my wrists, there are some scars but, I haven't self harmed in a long time, and I am proud of my self for it.

I look in the mirror of my room, and stare at myself.

I don't exactly love my body though, my thighs are a little big, and my body isn't as skinny as I would hope that it would be. Sometimes I wonder, what is it like to feel pretty, or confident. Because I know im nether.