Confessions

Chapter 50

"Yes!" Robert shouts after making the winning goal. I laugh and clap for him, he asks the man for a stuffed animal, and I argue with him telling him that he doesn't need to get me one but he gets it for me anyway. I still thank him. I check the clock and it says 8:00, I should get home. "Should we head home?" Robert says reading my mind, I smile and node. We both walk over to the car, and hop in. 

"That was fun,  right you had fun?"He asks while turing on the on the car. 

"Yes, I did I had lots of fun. Thank you for that I had a great time." I thank him. He stops and looks at me and just smiles. I take a breath and look away outside the window, "don't do anything stupid" I thought to myself. He starts the car and we start to drive home and he puts up the music a little  louder and I start to tap to the beat with my fingers and hum to the song. I can feel him looking at me, and smiling from the corner of my eye. I look to face him, "what?" I chuckle

"Nothing, your just too cute." I smile and blush and look away. 

"I wish you were mine," I hear him whisper, but very softly probably thinking he would only hear himself. But I heard it, I look at him and he looks at me. He pulls up to my house, with him still looking at me and me looking at him.  I cough, to try and break the tension. " Um thank you, for taking me out I enjoyed myself I really did." I say unlocking the door. 

"Yeah um no problem thanks for going with me." He laughs and scratches the back of his head. 

"I'll see you later." I smile opening the door and waving to him good bye as I close the door. What was that? He has feelings for me? I mean I suspected it, when he tried to kiss me a long time ago. But I thought he got the hint that matt and I are together, and we love each other. Did I almost kiss him in the car though? Did I want to kiss him? No, no I didn't I cant. I mean yeah he;s attractive an all but I don't have feelings for him. I don't. I walk into my house, my empty house. As usual.  All these thoughts are roaming around in my head and I don't know what to do. I walk up stairs to my room, and put down the tiny stuffed animal that I got at the fair with Robert and set it down on my bed. 

"where have you been?" I hear a voice boom from behind me. I scream and jump almost having a heart attack,  "Matt what the hell are you doing here?" I shout. 

"You can't just randomly show up at my house and start asking me random questions!" I yell. 

"Answer me where were you?" He growls. 

"I  was with Robert, you know that I told you!" I shout again.

"For that long?" He glares at me

"It wasn't that long.." I start but he cuts me off. 

"Are those his clothes!" He booms looking at the clothes on my body. 

"Yes." I  answer quietly.

"Why are you wearing them?" He asks trying to stay calm but I can tell it's not working. 

"Because we were supposed to go out to dinner but we couldn't because his reservations were canceled at last minute and I said we should do something else so I suggested to the carnival and I was to fancy to go to a carnival and he offered for me to wear something more comfortable!" 

"Is that what you wanted to hear? Ya know what I am so sick and tired of explaining my self, you should be able to trust me. And if this is about trust then you my friend are in no position to scold me about it." I yell 

"What the fuck is that supposed to mean?" He yells back. 

"It means that you lie to me all the time, and I have always forgiven you. Even for the most horrible things you have done to me I always forgive you for everything. I just don't get it how you can't trust me with someone that actually cares for me and is willing to take me out and make me feel loved..