Steddie One shots

He saved us

Angsty chapter for y'all!

Steve's PoV
My alarm went off but I didn't move. I couldn't move. I felt frozen, trapped. I let it beep and beep and beep for what felt like forever.
Robin knocked on my door and I ignored it. She came into my room anyway.

She walked over to me, turned off my alarm and shook me.
"Steve get up."
I shook my head and rolled over.
"Steve. Get. Up."
I turned my head to look at her, and her face was dead serious.
"I can't." I whispered.

She nodded in understanding and sat down next to me. "I know. It's hard, but you've gotta be strong. For the kids. For Eddie."

She stood up and pulled my curtains open, then found the outfit she had chosen for me yesterday.
"Go for a shower and come downstairs. I made breakfast."

I fought the urge to get back into bed and disappear into the covers. I hated it. I hated everything.

I pushed myself into the shower and stood under the water, tears and water flowing down my face.
I could've saved him. If I had've been a better friend. I could've saved him. He'd be here, with his friends and family where he belongs.
I'd be gone, but that would be ok with me. I don't have any family. No one would miss me.

I wish for the millionth time since we lost Eddie, that I had've been lost instead. This would be so much easier.

I got out of the shower and threw my funeral clothes on. A black button up shirt with matching black jeans. I did my hair and trudged downstairs to Robin.

She was wearing a plain black dress with a denim jacket. Eddies jacket. We ate breakfast in silence and jumped into my car, driving to pick up the kids.
Everyone was silent as we drove to the place Eddie wanted to be spread.

Dustin stood on a rock, with Mike next to him holding the urn. He looked at us and cleared his throat.
"So.. we're here because we lost a very dear friend." He wiped his eyes quickly and suddenly it hit me.

Eddie was gone, and there was nothing I could do for him now. But I could be here for my friends. I could help ease their pain.

Robin intertwined our fingers and we all watched Dustin speaking.
"He was a good person.. even if no one thought it. He saved us, he saved us all! We'll always love him."

Dustin threw the first handful of Eddie into the lake, then came and stood next to me. I rolled my arm around his shoulders, and held him close.

We all threw some of Eddie and then sat down, enjoying the peace and swapping Eddie stories.

Dustin looked at me. "He- Uh.. we all got something of Eddie's. He wanted you to have this." He pushed Eddie's ring into my hand. It was a dragon.

I put it on and sniffled. "He was so weird."
Everyone let out a quiet laugh.

"Yeah, he was." Lucas said, looking out at the lake.

"We'll all miss him." El said.

A/n
This didn't quite turn out how I wanted it to, but oh well. I have a super cute chapter planned for the next one, and it'll be long ish.
Anyway, love you guys!
-Liver

Q: Have you ever lost someone?

"I can see the stars again M'lady" -Zoë