𝘔𝘺 𝘣𝘢𝘣𝘺 - 𝘌𝘭𝘮𝘢𝘹 ♡

Chapter 53 - Admit ♡

Jane's POV-

I was in Max's room, waiting for her to finish putting away the clothes on her floor so that she could give me attention. While I waited I couldn't help but start to think about her Christmas gift again. It was all I ever thought about. I was so worried about the fact I hadn't picked a gift yet.

"Why do you look like you just had a flashback from world war two?" Max asked with a tone that implied she wasn't being serious.

"No. World war one." I played along. She snickered lightly and dropped the jeans she was holding to join me on her bed.

"But seriously, are you alright? I haven't seen you make a face like that since Mr.Wilson gave you detention." She questioned with a slightly more serious expression.

"I'm fine." I smiled weakly, knowing she could see right through me.

She cocked an eyebrow, unconvinced. "Jane. Be honest. What happened?"

I glanced down at my hands as my brain scrambled to put together a fake story to tell her, but I was taking too long.

"Jane??"

"Yeah- Sorry, I just didn't get hardly any sleep last night." I lied on the spot.

"You do know I'm your girlfriend right? I can tell when you're lying." Max crossed her arms under her chest.

"Listen. I would tell you but I can't because it has something to do with Christmas." I sighed, giving in slightly. I hoped and prayed in my head that she wouldn't question me any further.

"Christmas? Are you scared? Or stressed?" She questioned me.

"Both." I replied.

"Why?" She frowned.

"The reason is really stupid and it's not a big deal." I huffed, looking down at my lap.

"Well it's obviously bothering you, so just tell me." She scooted closer to me, placing a hand on my thigh supportively.

"I set super high expectations for our first Christmas as girlfriends and I just want everything to be perfect. I'm stressing myself out about it." I admitted hesitantly.

"Are you serious right now?" Max exclaimed, "You could show up to my house in a garbage bag covered in trash and give me a dirty rock for Christmas and I'd still be satisfied. All I want for Christmas is you. I thought you would've figured that out by now."

"But you already have me! You've had every part of me! There's nothing new to discover, I'm just boring old Jane now. I wanted to make this Christmas special so you don't get bored of me." I argued, completely dodging everything she just said.

"Jane. What the hell are you talking about?? Every day I discover something new about you. We grow closer. Sure, I've seen every inch of your body a million times but that doesn't mean I won't admire it like it's a piece of art every time. You're not "boring old Jane" nor have you ever been. You are the opposite of boring. Hearing you talk about yourself like that is like a bullet to my heart. You don't understand how much you mean to me. I promise you don't need to stress out about anything at all. I just want you to enjoy our first Christmas together and not spend all of it stressing out." She ranted rather passionately. I stared at her in awe. She said everything I needed to hear.

"I am so in love with you." I mumbled with a small smile, on the verge of tears.

"And I'm so in love with you." She grinned, leaning in to peck my lips.

I connected our lips again, but I made the kiss longer this time. It was almost like a 'thank you'.

When we pulled away, she stared at me with the same stupid grin she always wore around me before we dated. It was like she fell in love with me all over again. I smiled softly to myself, feeling so endlessly thankful for her.

an:

hey i updated!! this chapter is short.. ik.

i've been sick.

and school has been bad.

and i'm also very depressed, so writing is difficult these days.

i'm gonna try to start writing more often again but i don't wanna force myself to do anything i don't have the energy to do

i hope u all can understand!! :) <3

love u all!!!!💗