𝘔𝘺 𝘣𝘢𝘣𝘺 - 𝘌𝘭𝘮𝘢𝘹 ♡

Chapter 34 - Rollercoaster p2 ♡

Max's POV-

I spent the entire evening having very emotionally draining depressive episodes and panic attacks, so once I finally calmed down I fell asleep minutes later, and I slept heavily throughout the whole night attached to Jane. She was my main source of comfort. Steve slept on my floor, he insisted on spending the night just in case I needed him.

I woke up and it hurt to open my eyes, I groaned in pain and let go of Jane to wipe them. Her eyes flashed open immediately, as if she had been waiting for me to wake up.

"Hey love, is everything okay?" She asked tiredly.

"My eyes hurt." I whined, and I went back to cuddling her like I was before.

She rubbed my back and kissed my head, "How about we go and rinse your eyes out in the sink?"

"I don't wanna move" I complained.

"It's alright, we can try later-"

"Hey, I can go get a damp washcloth for her to wipe her eyes with." Steve chimed in randomly. I didn't even know he was awake.

"Does that sound good Max?" Jane asked.

"Yeah sure." I mumbled into her soft hoodie.

"Okay cool, be right back." I could hear him stand up and rush out of my room like it was urgent.

"Jane.." I sighed after he was gone.

"Mhm?" She hummed.

"I don't wanna feel like this anymore." I felt my eyes sting with tears once more. "It hurts so much to cry, I don't want to cry anymore."

"I know Max, I know you're hurting and it is so hard watching you go through this. But this is all a part of the process. You cant ignore your emotions, they'll just build up and crash down super hard." She ran her hands over my back and up my arms in a continuous loop that made me want to go back to sleep.

"Do you mind if I stay in bed all day?" I asked weakly.

She kissed my head once again, "Of course. Steve can be our maid, I'll stay in bed with you."

"God Jane. What did I do to deserve you?" I sighed and cuddled into her closer.

"You deserve me Max, you deserve the entire world. And I would give the entire world to you, but all I have to offer is myself for now." She joked, now running a hand through my hair. It felt like heaven.

"You are more than the entire world to me. You are the universe." I smiled slightly. "I couldn't survive this without you, seriously." My smile faded away pretty quick once I snapped back into reality.

"Aw, I-"

"Alright, okay, I didn't know if you wanted cold, warm, or hot water on your wash cloth so I brought three different ones to choose from in these lovely colorful bowls I found in the kitchen. Don't worry, the temperatures are separated." Steve cut Jane off, holding out a tray of three different colorful bowls.

"Thank you so much Steve, what temperature would you prefer love?" Jane asked me.

"Cold please." I answered, turning my head so that both of my eyes were completely uncovered.

Jane grabbed the cold one after Steve pointed out which one it was, and dabbed my eyes with the cloth very gently.

"Am I hurting you?" She asked nervously.

"No, they only hurt when I blink or cry." I assured her.

After a few more delicate wipes, she placed the cloth back in the bowl. "Any better?"

I blinked a few times to check, and was surprised that my eyes hurt a little less.

"It actually kinda worked." I nodded. Jane smiled back in return, and Steve just sat the tray down on my dresser and pulled a folding chair out of nowhere.

"Where'd you get that, Steve?" Jane asked.

"Oh uh brought it over so I could chill out wherever I need to." He held a couple thumbs up.

"You really don't have to sit in here and watch us, you can go relax on the couch if you'd like." Jane suggested.

"You sure?"

"Yeah, of course" Jane answered

I heard him stand up, fold his chair back up, and exit the room. Soon after, Jane kissed my forehead one more time and then I allowed myself to drift back into sleep.

- time skip: 2hrs and 20mins -

My eyes fluttered open, and this time they didn't hurt nearly as much as they did earlier. I immediately noticed that Jane was still rubbing my back.

"Hello there sleeping beauty," She grinned, "How are your eyes?"

"Better" I replied groggily, "Have you been rubbing my back this entire time?"

"I fell asleep for around 20 minutes, but besides that, yes." She answered.

Before I was able to say anything else, my mom walked into my room with Delilah. I looked over and immediately noticed her puffy eyes and her untamed hair.

"Hey girls, is everything okay? Last night was rough for everyone including Delilah, I was up until 4am so I slept in." I could see she was truly exhausted, I couldn't imagine suffering from the loss of a family member and taking care of a very needy baby at the same time.

"Hey Susan, I can take care of Delilah for a while so you can go take a nap." Steve popped up out of nowhere again.

My mom turned to Steve and raised an eyebrow, "Steve Harrington? When did you get here?"

"Last night." He replied.

"Oh. Well, do you know how to take care of a her?" She asked with suspicion.

"Yeah yeah of course, I have a cousin that's like 10 months old." He answered confidently.

She shrugged and handed over the baby, Steve cooed incoherently at the baby and walked away with her. Jane giggled at the scene.

"Well I'm gonna go ahead and go back to sleep, rest well honey." My mom turned to me and blew a tiny kiss before turning around and walking back into the hallway.

"Why is it whenever someone comes in my room, they never close my door?" I complained.

Jane snickered and stood up, closing the door as quickly as she possibly could, and then crawling back into bed with me.

"How long do you think It'll take me to feel like myself again?.." I asked out of nowhere.

"Well... That's a question I don't really have the answer to." Jane frowned.

I hope it's soon.

an:
i rlly don't like this chapter but i'm gonna post it anyways because i'm not redoing it.
anyways i rlly wanna start a ronance book but i feel like it would distract me from this book. lmk what u think
mwah 💋 love u