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tw. eating disorder
Michael

"You are not pregnant,"

"For definite?"

"For definite," Ashton said, making Maya dramatically fall into my side and sigh with relief.

"All that showed up on the other bloodwork was you have a slight, vitamin C and D deficiency, which has probably not helped with your mood,"

"What does that mean?"

"It means you don't quite get enough of those two vitamins. I will give you supplements, but I you need to get out in the sun!"

"Okay,"

"What type of food did you eat at home?"

"Just food," she said defensively.

"Did mum and dad cook for you?" I asked, "And make you lunch for work?"

"Not usually,"

"Stuck with the frozen pizzas then?"

"No,"

"What then?"

"I dunno,"

She sniffed, and put her arms round me, so I cuddled her tightly as Ash set up her prescriptions.

"Well I am gonna cook for you now. In fact this is all just an even better reason to hang out in the pool, and teach you all the meals I like to cook! Cal needs a few lessons too,"

"Absolutely," Ashton said, "I'll have to come over and try everything you make,"

"Will I be okay?"

"As long as you do as Michael says. I do think you should maybe look into birth control if you're worried this might happen again,"

"Okay. Thank you Ashton,"

"No worries, like I said, I will visit soon. We need a big catch up,"

He earned a big smile from her, then she shuffled off the exam bed and rubbed her eyes, making me carry the prescription.
We got it from the pharmacy downstairs, then I took it to the car and read through all the instructions as she composed herself.

"Michael,"

"Yeah?"

"Thank you,"

"What for?"

"Making it less awkward to answer questions,"

"I've got your back,"

"I don't have the best relationship with my appearance, or food. It's getting better though,"

She started to tear up, then laughed about herself crying, but I could see her heart breaking a little inside.

"Have you spoken to people about it before?"

"Yeah. That's the one thing mum and dad did for me,"

"I am so proud of you,"

"I am usually fine with food, yanno, I have started to enjoy it. It's just lately, with everything going on, I had to eat whatever they left me in the house, and I have been so stressed,"

"Well we can give it a week or so, and see how you feel after trying some of my awesome cooking. If you think you need more support then that's okay, we can find you that,"

"I hate myself right now,"

"Give me a hug," I said, holding her tightly, "I think you are so beautiful, and so, so strong,"

"I don't think so,"

"You definitely are,"

"I'm really fucking stupid too,"