All the tears I've wept (dabihawks)

Chapter 5

Hawks POV

So....Today is the day. Today is the day that they realese me from the hospital. I didn't want to go, but as displeased as I was they needed to help other people. I had worn out my welcome. So now i'm standing outside the hospital with its white walls. With its screaming with its pain and sat. Just sat, in front of the giant beautiful silver building and cried. I cried and cried, even after I thought it was done another wave of sadness and loneliness pushed me farther and farther from the island of sanity. So I kept crying and crying, 

"Exuse me? Mr?" I heard a little voice say from below me. Startled I jumped back from the tiny thing that had made the noise. As I looked down still afraid I relized that....it was just a little girl a tiny little girl with black hair and amber eyes, almost the same color as mine. "Why are you crying Mr?" she asked me, holding her hands together behind her back.

oh I wish I could tell you I thought to myself. WHY would she care, your nothing to her to Rumi to Toya to anyone. Your're nobody. "Please not now." I wispered to myself. "Please not now!" I wispered again. 

"KIKO!" I heard a anxious voice yell from behind me. I turned and looked and saw a women with the same amber eyes running twords me and the little girl. As soon as she had reached me and the little girl she dropped down on her knees and huged the girl. "KIKO!" She said. "What have I told you about running off like that! You had us all worried!" Kiko I thought. So that must be the girl and the women must be her mother, I figured. "Oh, oh my gods dearie are you okay? " she asked looking down on me with the same amber eyes as Kiko's. 

"Oh, I'm, well, I'm, yeah I've just had a pretty tough day. You know how it is" I responded, hoping that my tone didn't betray the words I had just spoken. 

"I'm really teribley sorry, I heard what happened on the news, and I heard hat happened to your friend." She said sadley. "Such a shame really, poor confused soul, couldn't hold on any longer to his sanity could he now?" She ended with a frown on her face. Now please I know that this lady was just trying to. Comfort me, she was really trying to make me feel  better, but honestly I was about ready to kick her ass for talking shit about Toya. But isn't Toya the one who burned your wings off, who abandoned you though who destroyed your only way of escape? I though to myself.  Why the fuck would I still care?  

I swallowed as I chose my next words more carefully. "Yeah I guess, I guess he just couldn't!" I said turning my head to the side. Now let me tell you, I was doing all I could to not 

A. Punch this bitch in the face 

and 

B. Straight up just bawl into her lap (maybe both)

"I guess I just wasn't good enough!" I confessed still smilling. 

"Aw sweetie don't ever say something like that. You are incredible and extremely talented. In fact you saved my sister! From the Nomu attack you know. She still had to go to the hospital and all that but if you weren't there she would be dead. Oh yeah, I thought. The nomu attack, I remember that. "Come here sweetie." She said shuffling closer to me and pulling me in tight.

"Oh, thank you ma'am!" I said gratefully 

"Yay group hug!" Kiko yelled and joined in on the hug. I heard her mother chuckle and say

"Oh, what would I do without you Kiko?" 

But still I wondered, is this how Toya felt? Is it true what he said?

SOME PEOPLE ARE SEEN AS HEROES BUT ONE LITTLE MISTAKE ONE LITTLE IMPERFECTION AND THE WORLD DEEMS YOU A MONSTER, LEFT TO ROT WITH THE REST OF LIFE'S SUPPOSED FAILURES.

oh if only the world knew what horrible things I had done.