All the tears I've wept (dabihawks)

Chapter 24

I can't do it. 

But I can. 

But I can't. 

But I could. 

But I shouldn't. 

But what if you did? 

But what if I don't? 

But you want to! 

The escape, my escape back to my family, my friends was right in front of me, right there, so close so fucking goddamn close! 

One question remained however. 

Should I stay here and wait for Keigo? Wait for a chance to see him again, to be near him again? 

Or I could leave, fucking run away back to former hide out and look for clues as to where they went, were they could have gone. 

Why was I conflicted? 

I shouldn't the answer should be clear, I should want to go back and find the league, find Himiko-chan.  

Find Tomura-kun. 

I needed to find them but my fucking stupid ass life , fucking everything, stupid fucking Keigo were keeping me here. 

Even though Keigo wanted me dead. 

Even though they all wanted me dead. 

I couldn't stay here, not if I wanted a way back. 

But did I. 

Yes, yes I did. 

But did you?

Yes now shut the fuck up it's the right decision I know it!

But what if it's not?

It is, it has to be. 

I need it to be.

I turned away from the weird plastic window and walked closer and closer to the back wall where I had hid the officers unconscious bodies from earlier careful not to make any loud noises whatsoever. 

I mean they were knocked out but you could never be to careful. 

Hey kinda nice not having any cell mates or any other guards around, otherwise probably wouldn't have worked.  

They all had key cards yes, but I wasn't going to escape with that sense the only way in was from the outside. Plus you needed three people to open it, that's why there were currently three of them back there, wasn't to hard this batch was particularly stupid. 

I was lucky enough to have been able to knock out all of them but if I didn't have everything in order before the others noticed and rushed over to help then I would be in a very bad situation. 

See there's no way I could get out myself so my plan was to attach the electric collar I had to one of them which obviously wouldn't do much but hey it would stop one of them. And the three of them have guns obviously which would help get my bands off and the whole hostage thing planned. 

So i'd have them at gun point, plus I could incinerate them with my quirk at anytime.

It was either them or me. 

Who would they chose?

But you could just stay here, stay here and wait for Keigo to wait and atone for the horrible things you've done. 

I should do that. 

I wanted to do that, maybe just maybe he would hug me. Look at me again. 

I was so happy just at the thought.