It was still blurry, but it was a little lighter.
No the light was blurry, but I wasn't.
What?
Where was I?
It was too bright, it was like a hospital.
Hospital.
Just like before.
Help.
What did they do to me?
What happened?!
I couldn't move.
What if, what if I was back? Back there, back in the, the place from before.
The doctor, no, no I couldn't be back there.
They'd hurt me, touch me, they'd put weird stuff in me.
It'd hurt.
It'll hurt.
I'll hurt if I can't get out of here.
But I can't move.
Stop breathing so fucking hard, you'll give yourself a heart attack.
No, no I don't wanna be here, help me!
It's not the same place.
But it might be, even if it's not the same thing might happen.
I wasn't safe.
I could never be safe could I?
Fuck.
I tried to move any of my fingers but they wouldn't, they felt numb like the circulation had been cut off.
In fact the only thing I could move right now was my head.
I turned my head over to look at my fingers.
They were still my fingers.
They were still my fingers.
Nothing had been done to me, yet.
I could still run.
The fact I hadn't been touched yet helped calm me down a little.
But I still couldn't feel safe, something bad could happen to me at any moment.
The doctor or whoever brought me here might come back.
I'd rather fucking die then go back to there.
To them.
Have you ever seen a girl ripped open?
Filled with wires.
Limbs replaced with other species limbs.
I was lucky.
Lucky I didn't end up dead.
Lucky I was the favorite.
Lucky I was only replaced with some others flesh, that I was still myself.
I might not be after this.
I need to get up someone help me get up.
My breaths came faster and faster.
No, no, no.
I tried my fingers again, they still wouldn't move, why won't they move?
I felt a burning sensation right under my eyes.
I knew what it was.
It was tears.
My tear ducts had been burned away so anytime I tried to cry blood came out instead, it hurt to cry as well, which only made me cry more.
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All the tears I've wept (dabihawks)
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