He didn't hurt me
I waited and waited for him to hit me, but it never came.
The fuck?
He lunged at me.
But instead of me getting hurt it looked like he was hurt instead.
Right below me he was shivering on the ground and it looked like he had been electrocuted or hit by something.
It terrified me.
He looked so vulnerable, so easy to hurt.
I could kill him right here then kill myself, then I could be done with this goddamn mission with my hell of a fucking life, with the commission with everything.
But he was Toya, he was my friend.
No he wasn't not anymore. He couldn't be Toya, he's nothing like Toya, Toya would never hurt another person ever especially not the ones he loved and cared about.
But he was Toya.
And he was this way because of me wasn't he.
He was getting hurt because of me, it was all because of-
"Help me,"
Toya?
"Help me Keigo please. I know what I did was wrong, I know leaving you was a horrible thing I did, I know it was my fault but now I need help."
"I need you to help me,"
Help him.
Help.
He died because he didn't have help mine or others he turned out like this, help I needed to help him I never did.
I could now.
But he's no longer Toya is he?
He's Dabi, he tried to kill me.
No, Toya tried to kill me.
No he would never try to hurt me never!
Or maybe he was just waiting, waiting for a chance to leave, waiting for a chance to leave.
Maybe he hated me from the start.
"Keigo." He said again more strained this time. Dabi would just take my help and leave again, no I didn't want him to leave I never wanted him to leave again.
But Toya, Toya would stay, he would thank me, praise me.
But Toya was Dabi.
No.
For the last time, Toya isn't Dabi they are two different people, Toya died and Dabi was born, Dabi was created because of me.
I loved him so much.
I could save him right now, I could save him, I could love him again and we could be happy. But Dabi tried to kill me he absolutely hated me, he was just using me for whatever he wanted. Like what he wants right now. But what does he want right now?
Maybe he does want to love me again.
No.
That's a foolish idea he'd rather see me die.
That idea made me sad.
Very fucking sad.
Why?
Why did things turn out this way?
Was I not good enough?
Was Toya already to far gone for me to save?
Why?
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