I dropped to my knees, how could I have been so stupid?!
How could we all have been so stupid.
Of course he fucking knew, of course that bastard All for One knew, of course!
Tears leaked from my eyes burning a trail of destruction down my face, as I coward in the center of the room. I basked in it's blue glow just like the tubes at the prison, they lured me in with their soft promise of healing and love.
This light wasn't as kind.
It was a harsh burning blue light, like one of a snowstorm.
Why?
He wasn't going to kill any of the big heroes, well not accept All Might but I guess he doesn't really count since he'd been retired for a few years now.
No just control use them to portray a fake life, a fake Japan, a fake everything!
He wouldn't keep everything in line by fear, he'd do it by manipulating everyone.
At least that's what I assumed from the many spreadsheets and numbers and letters and names overwhelming my brain from the whole thing.
It hurt to look at for some reason.
I didn't like it.
Why did it hurt like this?
And how could I've been so stupid?
For some reason it was funny to me that the most dangerous criminal in all of Japan just happened to use some sort of fucking google spreadsheet or some shit.
It was funny that all the rest of us used the same thing.
Didn't know why.
Should I call Dabi?
Toya?
Dabi over?
I mean he's doing his own thing it's not like he needed this, or me by any chance but still.
Still shouldn't he know about this?
Why would he care though?
Wasn't he on All for Ones side?
He didn't care at all, not about me not about the world or about anything, at this point i'm pretty sure he was just a sad walking corpse.
Then again wasn't I?
I sighed long and deep, feeling the musty dirty air reach my lungs, it didn't smell of anything, maybe a little like smoke a little like metal.
Kinda like Dabi.
Why did everything have to involve Dabi? Why was he everywhere I looked?
This was a serious really, really bad situation and here I was fucking just thinking all about Dabi, what the hell.
Thinking about his feelings when he never ever cared anything about mine, maybe not even when we were kids.
Push it down.
Push it down.
Push it down.
I told myself over and over again.
Just do what the commission had told me, just push everything down.
It didn't matter if it exploded when I got back home collapsed onto the floor or if it exploded in a bar on my like what seventh drink.
It didn't matter if it exploded when I was in my bed or even if I wasn't alone.
Just not in front of them.
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Fanfiction"Hey how about we play a game!" he sugested. "You stay here and wait for me when I come back!" he finished. "That sounds boring Toya!" the other child said. "Plus i'm not like five anymore!" he said with a giggle. "Well nice to meet you i'm not like...
