All the tears I've wept (dabihawks)

Chapter 26

Was he okay? 

What made him pass out? 

If it was purposeful who would want him dead? 

And what did they hit him with?

What dosage? 

And would it come back later?

Why was I worried? 

I should be happy shouldn't I? 

Happy with what? 

That Dabi could be hurt? 

That someone was planning to kill him?

Why would I be happy about that? 

But he's not Toya anymore.

At least not my Toya. 

I didn't understand. 

I didn't want to, I wanted to run away I wanted to hide, just curl into a ball and await my fate, whatever that fate was. 

I just wanted my Toya back. 

I just wanted him to come back and be normal again, I just wanted everything to be normal. 

I wanted everything to be right. 

I wanted everything to go back to where it belonged. 

Just like the movie CD, at Rumi's house it went in it's CD player. 

Me and Toya went together. 

Me and Rumi went together. 

Me, Rumi and Toya went together. 

We were complete. 

But instead things turned out a little differently. 

What should I do now? 

What could I do? 

I had a chance to make things right to apologize to move closer to him, to love him again. 

But I couldn't. 

Because I was scared? 

Because I was angry?

Because I was guilty? 

Because I was jealous?  

Because I was hurt? 

Maybe I was all of those things. 

Maybe I just felt nothing at all. 

I wanted to love him again, but it wouldn't work would it? 

"Hawks, are you ready?" Commander Toshitsu asked. 

Hell, no I wasn't ready. 

In fact I was sure i'd never be ready. 

But I couldn't tell her that. 

I'd be being selfish, i'd be being cruel. 

Peace depends on this mission. 

I couldn't just give all of it up because of a feeling I had. 

"Yeah, whats the plan?" I asked. 

"Well we don't really have a plan," Toshitsu said, sitting down at the chair across from me. "All for Ones motive is very obvious he wants power, he wants control, i'm not sure why but he does, however he is both predictable and unpredictable, he'll be one step ahead of us but at the same time we'll be capturing his operatives but then that'll be a trap but we know it's a trap but then," She said, stopping and sighing. "My point is that his attacks and ideas are complicated but simple at the same time, which is why we need each of our teams to combat that. The teams will also be relatively small and each of the team leaders will be assigned based on their talents. You and Dabi will be stationed near a undercover Nomu facility in Shizuoka. Your goal will to be obtain the most information you can, I know it seems simple but if you can retrieve info that's important then we have a better chance, plus you'll be in Yoshida if those citizens need to be evacuated then you'll be there along with Mirko's team I know you and Mirko are close as well and you work excellently together."