All the tears I've wept (dabihawks)

Chapter 28

It was still dark by the time I woke up, the sound of rain falling onto the leaves of the trees greeting me. That and the breaths of the people pressed up against me, it reminded me of how penguins would cuddle to keep warm. 

Man what time was it? 

I should get a clock as soon as we go into town. 

And a map. 

Definitely get a map. 

The rain was quite calming, thankfully it wasn't that serious of a storm otherwise we'd be in trouble. 

Oh shit. 

I had no one keeping watch, I realized. 

Someone could've trifled through here while I was asleep. 

Well while we were asleep. 

I don't think anyone would've known that we were here but just in case we should still look for traces of anyone or anything. 

Well as soon as everyone else woke up.

I didn't think I wanted to wake anyone else up, they might get pissed, plus these people needed their rest. 

Oh, fuck Jess. 

She was still here. 

Or not. 

She could've been taken. 

Fucckkkkk, i'll have to get up when someone else goes, but until then I guess i'm stuck here for now. 

To be honest I really didn't want to get up, it was warm. And I didn't really want to face Dabi or Jess, she'd definitely just argue against it and i'd get her to go away and then she'd just come back. 

I wonder if her parents were worried. 

I hoped they were. 

I hoped that they cared about her. 

I didn't want anyone else to go through what I did or what Toya did. 

I didn't want Jess to have the same childhood. 

I hopped that her's was a least a little better than either of ours. 

Fuck. 

I didn't want to fail anyone else like I did Toya. 

All though I've begone to disappoint more and more lately. 

I didn't want to do that. 

And I didn't want to hate Dabi, but every time. 

I just. 

Fuck. 

I didn't want to get up. 

At this point I don't think I wanted anything at all. 

If I could just die that'd be nice.

Or if I could run away, that's still an option. 

I could run. 

Run away from everything. 

I'd never hurt again. 

No that's if I died. 

I kinda wanted to just run away, run until I couldn't anymore, till I fell asleep again.

Till I fell asleep forever. 

I couldn't do that however. 

There were so many fucking people counting on me. 

You know who wasn't counting on me?