When did it get cold?
I didn't know.
My wings brushed up against the trees scratchy uneven bark no matter how hard I tried to keep them away from it.
Hopefully I didn't leave any feathers.
Fuck.
The conversation between me and Dabi.
Toya.
Dabi kept playing over and over and over in my head.
I shouldn't have brought up the thing about his dad, it was so wrong of me.
I didn't even know why I did it.
It was so stupid I was so stupid I was just so angry.
So angry.
And so tired.
Tired of everything and this mission.
I didn't want to do this mission, I felt sick every time I thought of what would happen to everyone if I failed.
If I made a single mistake.
That's why I couldn't make a mistake.
Not now.
Not ever again.
A mistake like Toya?
A mistake like you?
You could still just kill yourself, get out of everything.
But people needed me.
Did they?
Dabi could lead this mission much better than I ever could.
"Hey Hawks sir?"
Sir fuck that one comment that mocking tone.
It was like he hated me.
It wasn't like the teasing man I once knew.
He could kill me.
I'd be fine with it.
Maybe i'd even find it sexy in a certain circumstance.
But this wasn't that circumstance.
He might hate me enough to kill me.
Toya, might kill me.
Well he almost did before.
No fuck no please no I don't want to think about that please.
Please!
But it came anyway the memory bursting like a water balloon that flooded every part of me until I couldn't breathe.
I couldn't breathe.
The black doors slammed open.
It hurt the pain of the burning beautiful blue flames and my headache, caused by the fact that Dabi had slammed his foot onto my head.
Most likely with the intent to brake my skull.
Fuck that asshole, I fucking needed to breathe but I couldn't it just felt smokey and I kept coughing trying not to breathe it in.
But it was everywhere.
Surrounding me.
Suffocating me.
Fuck and just when I thought we were good.
Right when I thought everything was fine it wasn't.
What did I do?
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All the tears I've wept (dabihawks)
Fanfiction"Hey how about we play a game!" he sugested. "You stay here and wait for me when I come back!" he finished. "That sounds boring Toya!" the other child said. "Plus i'm not like five anymore!" he said with a giggle. "Well nice to meet you i'm not like...
