Always Mine {Book 3}| Completed

Chapter 12

Chapter Twelve
EMMA POV:

     I parked my car at the Omill where Mandy and I made plans to meet at. I was actually happy that I get to go to this nice place to meet up with Mandy because we haven't spoken since when I woke in the hospital. I mean she popped in a few times with Victoria. But now that I'm actually out of the hospital, I want to actually be able to talk with her when I'm not in a stupid hospital bed.

    While I was sitting my car, I was thinking of everything that is happening in my life right now. And all I can say is that everything is actually back on track. But here I am just sitting in the parking lot wanting nothing but to actually see Mandy. And I could see her car from across parked in already. And I realize she has kept that Jeep still. She's had it since the day she got driver's license. And fun factor, Aaron is the one who taught her to drive. And they used to take his car, a white Nissan. And she told me that they would drive in an abandoned warehouse in its parking lot. And she said it felt like hours. She was going on sixteen then, just going for her driver's license. And she actually enjoyed every second and moment of it with the guy she had loved since she was fifteen.

And this Jeep of hers, she bought with her dad and Aaron went with them. Her dad wanted her to have a Lexus. But Mandy claimed it was ugly and just didn't suit her. And then she saw the Jeep, and she fell in love with it immediately. Her dad only agreed because it was lesser than what the cat ship deal was originally. So, of course he was practically just fine with it. And according to Mandy she and Aaron had sex plenty of times in that very Jeep of hers. And I can't imagine how many times. But then again, I'm not one to judge.

The OMILL was in fact filled with a lot of people going in and out of the place. I had looked at myself in my mirror, just looking at my face and I thought I looked pale for some odd reason. But I wasn't even concerned on how I looked right now. On my mind, I had everything that I said my mother. I said horrible things. And right now I'm regretting most of what I said and then others not so much because I feel she deserved it. It felt like I just hurt myself or betrayed myself in a way. And I can't take back anything I had said to her. I mean, she did say it was complicated and that I wouldn't understand. And maybe she's right. Maybe I don't understand. But maybe I would if she could have been honest with me and tell me everything about it so I can understand. But I guess my mother just wanted to act like everything was nothing. And I think Colleen wasn't that innocent either because when I asked she lied right to my face to avoid any stress on me. And I can't believe dad forced Christopher to not tell about my parents affair. And I just hate my parents for doing something stupid. I mean they were both so selfish and don't care. So yes, there's a lot going on in my head right now that all I want to do is scream.

     But right now I need to let that go and actually try to make today good. It's funny how my parents never bothered me for three years until now after they've been divorced for so long. And now that their not together I have reasons to love their friendship instead. And I went through pain and suffered over over and over again. The turmoil and the abuse I suffered from Noah. And I made Christopher suffer for a year. And now that I'm finally with him, my parents are trying to make this affair my problem as also Christopher's. And now I'm perfectly happy, and I'm actually in the right place. But I wonder what my dad and mom are going to do. I mean it seems ignorant but important. Are my parents going to forget everything and stay in their marriages to Colleen and Gavin? Or will they leave them and somehow decide to rekindle? What will they do?

   But I guess I guess it is out of my hands.

      I had brought my attention back to reality, and I noticed Mandy's Jeep that is a dark green color. It's beautiful. And I absolutely love it. And here I am, just watching her Jeep. And I fix myself by looking in the mirror, and I did nothing but just fix my face to look like I'm fine. Because I am fine. And I will keep telling myself over and over again.