Always Mine {Book 3}| Completed

Chapter 23

Chapter Twenty-Three

EMMA POV:

The world was ending to me. And somehow I felt like everything was over. Or so it was. And I just did nothing but stay outside in the large parking lot of the venue. I had just thought about the awful things. The things I went through today. First; not being able to see Christopher for at least twenty-four hours. Second; I had to witness Christopher flirt with that Isla girl. And then; I watch Aaron and Mandy get engaged right in front of my eyes. And I don't know if it's okay to me because I actually don't like the idea that Mandy could just outright say yes to him after he had cheated on her.

I actually had to think this through. Am I angry about this engagement? Hell yes. And I want to tell Mandy to refuse to accept it. I am Mandy's best friend but there's no way in hell she will listen to me, but I know that Aaron can't be trusted. He sort of put Mandy through a lot. They been back together for a while, sure, whatever. But to just jump into marriage is like buying a dog at the shelter and then dumping it to someone else. And I know Mandy deserves freedom. Maybe if Mandy was knocked up by Aaron, I might look at this differently. But I'm seeing it the same way I see how my parents marriage started.

My parents got married very young and too soon. Which they both admitted. And here is Aaron who has cheated on Mandy. That's how my parents relationship was before they married. My dad cheating on my mom with his colleagues at work or even old flings he had and I think Mandy is in the same direction as my mom. When they get married he might cheat on Mandy constantly. I still don't trust Aaron with her. I'm sick of my friends getting cheated on by their boyfriends. For example, Luke cheated on Victoria in high school. And then she got with Logan and she's been happy ever since. And I know Logan is a great guy. He's not like Luke was and he's not like Aaron. But Aaron can't be trusted. I'm sure he had enjoyed who he stuck his dick into. And I'm still confused to why Mandy took him back. Maybe it's because they been in love since they were fifteen.

I know that if Christopher ever cheated on me, I would lose my mind. I wouldn't know how to find it in my heart to forgive him. But it would need to take a lot of work. But then again, it depends who he would cheat on me with. If it would be some random girl maybe it wouldn't be as bad as if he cheated on me with Peach or April. But April and I have called it truce, plus she lives in New York and she is starting her own art gallery in Brooklyn. And I hope to one day go there and check it out.

   There might be a part of me that knows things are totally different between when it comes to Aaron and Mandy, I'm sure. He only cheated once, I get it. But they always say that once they cheat, they are likely to do it again. So Mandy getting engaged to Aaron seems too sudden and too quick. So they get back together and then he just proposes? I actually don't get it all. Maybe this is none of my business. But I know when something seems right and when something doesn't seem right. And this definitely doesn't.

    I've been back together with Christopher for four months, and I do feel quite horrible about something bad happening between us. And this is why we're in counseling. But then again, my dad and Colleen are also going through a rough time in their relationship. Colleen goes to AA meetings and she and my dad go to therapy. And I actually hope that helps. And I think my dad is the perfect example for people to realize that people don't change. And I've been fine with my dad and Colleen's relationship for three years. But as I stop to think about it, my dad learned from the worst person in his life. And that is my Grandfather.

    I do know this much. My Grandfather Joseph, he had constantly remained unfaithful to my grandmother through most of their relationship. And maybe my dad sort of just knew about it when he was so young that maybe he was traumatized. And he thought that doing something like that gets rid of your grief. My dad had the worst childhood that he never talks about it. My Grandfather was a cruel person. He was emotionally and physically abusive to my dad all his childhood. And my dad had witnessed his younger brother die right in front of him when he was fourteen. And after that, I think the abuse just got worse for him. And I think my dad never healed from what happened to his brother. He went through depression and anxiety and he experienced with drugs and sex by the time he was fifteen and when that was happening my grandfather had mistresses. And my grandmother Barbara had no idea what was happening with her son. But she did know about all the women her husband was sleeping with. And she did the opposite of what my mother did. My Grandmother had stayed in a marriage where her husband constantly cheated on her, because she felt it only made the perfect sense to stay because she didn't want anyone in town to know about what he had done. So I think my dad had this burden on him that he carried from his father. Which started after his brother died and since then, my dad took advantage of himself. And maybe cheating, and hurting women made him feel better. And I think when your young, you do things so immaturely. And it's the same with Christopher. He did stupid things. He was a player. And an asshole. So maybe my dad and him have some things in common.