Always Mine {Book 3}| Completed

Chapter 35

E M M A P O V:

I sat on the bed, completely unaware of anything. And I'm definitely unable to process anything that had just happened. Lara Jean walking into the room like she owned the place. And I was just so shocked by her entrance that I was paralyzed when Christopher left the room to go after her and barely say anything to me.

I told myself not to cry. I couldn't even call anybody because we're in the woods, in the middle of nowhere. There are no cell towers enough for us to get any service out here. So I couldn't call Victoria if I wanted to. Not even Mandy who is in the hospital and I'm processing her situation that has to do with her addiction that I thought was in the past. But I'm gonna stick by her side regardless. But worse of all, Christopher left me to go fight with Lara Jean, and I'm gonna be perfectly fine. Even though I don't feel it, I'm gonna pretend it.

I refused to cry. And so the first thing I did was decide to step into the shower and try to get through everything that has just happened. I had walked into the bathroom and I turned on the shower. I had my towel right by the shower. I closed the door midway and I got into the hot shower. And while I was in the shower, I just kept trying to understand why Christopher left me for Lara Jean. And I'm still not convinced why Lara Jean hates me. Ty could've hated me but he refused to let go what had happened between Christopher and me. He knew that we were always meant to be. I remember the conversation he had with me when he showed up at The Bean cursing me out and blaming me for Christopher trying to kill himself. Back then, I victimized myself. But when I was in a toxic relationship with Noah, Ty drove me home after I dropped Christopher off at his apartment.

  And I remember what Ty told me. He said he didn't hold grudges forever and that I took Christopher from my dad and Colleen's anniversary party drunk and drove him home in his car. Which showed I cared about him. Ty said what I did was messy. But he forgave me. And Ty told me it was best we both moved on and we're happy. He said that I made Christopher the most happiest. But I stepped out of his car and into the penthouse where Noah would beat me so badly that I was so numb and afraid that I walked on eggshells.

So if Ty can accept me, why can't Lara Jean?

   I stood in the shower, underneath the shower head. And I felt traumatized. I was soaked from head to toe. I expected Christopher to run back up into the room and maybe find me in the shower like he usually does. But he never came in. So I expected that he just stayed downstairs or he was in the room just waiting for me.

    I washed my hair underneath the shower head. I washed my whole body with the body wash. It was a coconut scent. And as soon as I was done, I turned the shower off and I grabbed my towel and wrapped it around me. I felt the floor vibrate and it turns out it was a loud rumble from the thunder. I looked out the window, seeing it rain. But I could barely see outside due to how dark it was and how there was no light out there.

    I was expecting to find Christopher just sitting on the bed waiting for me. So I sighed and I walked out, putting a smile on my face but when I stepped into the room he wasn't there. I found this to be strange. I been in the shower for fifteen minutes and he isn't up here trying to see if I'm alright after what happened?

   I knew coming here was the worlds biggest mistake. I had took out a pair of red sweats and a white crop top. And I towel dried my hair. And then I decided to maybe pack my shit up and try to ask Ty to bring me to the nearest in service for cell phones and I can call myself an Uber or maybe get a bus ticket to go back home because I cannot stay here another fucking minute. I need to go back home. Maybe I can stay with mom and Gavin until this trip is over and when Christopher gets back. But I cannot stay the night here. Not with Lara Jean being the way she's been.