Always Mine {Book 3}| Completed

Part II: Chapter Twenty Five

              C H R I S T O P H E R   POV:

   I had woke up to a loud bang. And I jumped up, and I saw Lindsey asleep next to me. I had realized it was all the noise outside. And I remembered we are in New York. Staying in one of the hotels that I actually didn't mind. And when I woke, I saw my phone light up on the nightstand.

     I could see it was a text and I picked it up to see it was from an unknown number. And I had held my phone in my hand, and I noticed the text was shocking me terribly.

  
              TEXT FROM UNKNOWN:
                You can't ignore me forever.

                TEXT FROM UNKNOWN:
                       That night was perfect.

                   TEXT FROM UNKNOWN:
              I wouldn't mind hooking up again.

               TEXT FROM UNKNOWN:
                      Did you tell her it's over? 🙄

         I had ignored the texts that I scrolled down seeing. And I knew it was from the girl I hooked up with a few weeks ago. I hate myself for it. I was so drunk that I actually hardly remember it at all. And I was angry because of the fight Lindsey and I had. So all I was thinking about was getting laid. And I didn't appreciate Lindsey then. Because I absolutely love Lindsey and I hate that I messed up already. And that wasn't me. Because I'm not into this girl at all. And I feel like I was taken advantage of because I was severely drunk.

   I have decided that I'm going to change my ways. And one of the things I want to do is try to make this trip the most of it. Im meeting Lindsey's parents, so it's obviously important. And I kinda want to make a good impression on them for Lindsey. And the funny part is, Lindsey refuses us to be staying at her parents place. It's like she's almost terrified of them. Or insecure. Whenever I bring up her parents, she cringed and just changes the subject so quickly that I can't even decipher it.

I keep forgetting we're in New York. And so I end up being awake and then I place my phone back down on the nightstand. And immediately I just remembered last week Lindsey has sent out the invitations to everyone we decided to go. It's mostly her family and friends. The only people who actually want to go to the wedding that I know is Leah and Lara Jean. I called mom a week ago and we talked for two hours on the phone. She told me that Lindsey wouldn't ever make me happy. She told me if I marry Lindsey that she won't forgive me. And she told me if I did, I might get my memory back and when I do it will crush me and I might realize all of the damage I did. Mom is sounding a lot like my therapist now. But everyone is wrong. I'm not going to get my memory back. And I wish everyone would let it go. And Ty is still treating me like I'm a criminal. And I've done nothing wrong. I only have tried the better of things. And right away, Emma is the first person I go to. I think of how I am hurting her. Her phone has been off for a couple of weeks. But I don't think she forgot to pay her phone. I think she blocked me. Typical petty shit is what she did.

I guess I had hurt her badly. I go to her Instagram and I see she's been out at parties with Victoria. And it pisses me off because Emma seems like she's getting drunk every night. And this morning I see that she was out at a party last night with Victoria, and I literally rolled my eyes watching Emma taking shots and even talking in slurs from being so drunk. And I can't hate Emma. She's angry at me. As she has been for weeks.

   I had seen that the weather is going to be very humid today. And so I had decided to not worry so much while taking a plane back and forth from last night when we arrived here. And now I'm doing it perfect by trying to get through it by being here in New York. And I'm doing it all for Lindsey. I want to prove to her I love her and that I am going to be the perfect husband. Because there is no one else in my eyes. And immediately, I'm done with screwing up. That's the high school me. And I refuse to be that. So now I'm no longer going to get drunk whenever we fight, I'm not going to release myself with someone just because I want angry sex to take it out on because I'm angry at Lindsey. No more of that.