Always Mine {Book 3}| Completed

Chapter 27

I have been pacing the room since I arrived at the hospital. I couldn't stand still. I couldn't stop worrying about Mandy since they brought her in the hospital from the ambulance. I rode in the ambulance with her, leaving my car at Mandy's house. I can just collect it later. But I'm just pacing the waiting room like crazy. I'm not sure if Mandy did this intentional or accidental. I can't put it together in my mind.

I kept touching my neck because it was so sore from Josh's hand choking me earlier in the parking lot. What is it with Josh and me always seeing each other at clothes stores and then getting assaulted in the parking lot? I actually just kept replaying it over and over again in my fucking head. And I can't even imagine what it is that I am doing when I see Josh. I was told to run by Peach, but I refused to at first because I let my kindness, my compassionate spirit out by caring for Peach's wellbeing than my own safety.

The waiting room is completely empty. Mandy has been in the hospital for at least an hour. I know that I must call Christopher or text him and tell him what's going on. And of course, I realized that Aaron isn't in town right now. Unfortunately he went on a trip that involved business with his father somewhere in San Jose. And right now, I know that I have to be here for her. The doctors won't exactly tell me anything that is going on with her. I saw the needles and I know it was a heroin overdose. I knew she was an addict as I was told by Victoria. But why would she use? Is this why she has been ghosting me for weeks? I literally cannot explain any of this.

I think Mandy has been having a problem for a bit, but she was afraid to tell any of us about her problem. And I can't even explain anything, because so much doesn't add up. I can't quite put to words except of how shocked I am. I think I'm also shocked about my run in with Josh and being assaulted. But I should be running to the nearest police station and report Josh and then get a restraining order on him, but I'm too focused on Mandy. But I know Josh is forcing Peach to having sexual relations with businessmen at the hotel I have never stepped foot into. But I'm just going to end my time with how I feel, maybe calling Christopher to admit to him and maybe he can call Aaron and let him know about Mandy's overdose.

    I actually just felt like crying, for real. But I've always been told that I need to be strong. Because I am the stronger one, always. And I couldn't tell if I might be losing my mind or I'm just insane. And I can't put anything together at this point. And I look every two minutes to check the time. And when I see the time, I just panic more and more. But I feel my eyes water, and my back is in pain, and I look down at my arm that has a bruise slowly appearing across my forearm. And this is something I need to talk about protecting myself. I should tell my dad. But now I'm not losing my mind. If I need protection, others can't do it for me. So, I need to protect myself. So I think if I went to some sort of self defense class or something that I can do to protect myself.

   I know that Gavin has expertise in boxing and Krav Maga. I think I saw a movie that Jennifer Lopez was in that it was used. And Christopher took the class up once. But since I feel in danger all the time because of Josh Scott, I can use my body to fight. I want to be able to defend myself. Maybe restraining orders isn't enough. I need to actually defend myself. I need to prove myself that I'm not this nice girl. Because Noah took a lot from me. And Josh thinks he can too. Well hell no, he is not winning this.

I try calling Aaron for what feels like the millionth time. But it's been fourteen times. But of course, it took sometime for me to actually realize that I need to call Christopher. But before I could call him, the doctor came out to approach me. She knew I had been here because I arrived in the ambulance with Mandy as she was unconscious in the ambulance. On the way to the hospital, the paramedics actually got her pulse back stronger since I did perform CPR until the ambulance arrived, which I was instructed by the 911 dispatcher.