Always Mine {Book 3}| Completed

Part II: Chapter Twenty Seven

              C H R I S T O P H E R    POV:

     The cloths to the table were a dark midnight blue. And I actually liked the color. I was in complete stress and resentment because mom and Ty want absolutely nothing to do with my wedding. In two days, I'll be married. And to not have them by my side for support actually hurts.

  The whole time I've been here, I keep playing in my head of what my wedding day will be like. I keep playing it over and over and over of how it might all go down. And a part of me is just hurting from it. And at this wedding dinner rehearsal, Lindsey is wearing the most beautiful strapless purple dress. And the whole time she actually looked gorgeous and I couldn't take my eyes off of her. But I had something else entirely on my mind. I was thinking about Emma. I was wondering what she was doing right now. I keep imagining my hands on her. Lying beside her, my fingers in her beautiful brown hair as we lie in the grass together with the sun shining down on us. And here I am, with every inch of happiness and devotion but not with the girl I'm constantly thinking of.

  It's funny because I'm entirely aware of how much I love Lindsey. But somehow something inside me is changing and I'm feeling something for Emma all of a sudden. And this feeling was never here. And just right before I'm to get married in a few days, the feelings pop up. And worse, I keep dreaming of Emma singing this song and I start humming it every chance I can get.

The song is kind of very soft and mellow. And it started two days after I had first read the first letter. And it just struck in my mind like a piece of art being on paper and right in front of me. And it was stuck in my head. I'm not even positive what the lyrics are. I only know the tune of it. And certainly, I'm like hearing it in my head. And here I am at the venue to the wedding rehearsal dinner and the whole time, this is what I'm doing. Thinking of Emma.

I thought about calling Emma, but something told me not to. And I was definitely freaked out, seeing all of Lindsey's New York friends just showing up here. And while we were all talking and just hanging around together, I was thinking of Emma.

This isn't normal.

And I'm actually going crazy. And the first thing I'm deciding on is actually trying to play it all out. I think during the first serve of drinks, Lindsey noticed I was not my usual self because of how quiet I was.

While I was just sitting at the table, Lindsey was showing off the ring on her finger to her friends and they all laughed, and they all giggled with excitement and joy as Lindsey bragged to them. And I was just here feeling a certain way like I was going crazy. Why the fuck am I thinking about Emma? Now I know Emma isn't wrong. My amnesia can't fight it anymore. Am I going to remember?

No, it's been four months. There's no way I'm gonna remember everything now. But no, I need to find a way to push Emma out of my head. I don't know how. I'm just gonna find a way to do it. And as I'm just sitting here, I'm lost in my own thoughts while Lindsey is giggling with her friends talking about our proposal. And our first date. But I didn't care about much. I was thinking about a girl I shouldn't want. But I do.

Lindsey was laughing with her best friends, Dara and Olivia. And I was stuck thinking about if there's a possibility that this might all be a mistake. I'm literally thinking about Emma. Why the fuck am I thinking about Emma? I'm ready to cry now. This isn't normal. I can't understand it.

Lindsey turned her flashing smile from her friends and over to me, and she somehow knew how to snap me back to reality.

"Well aren't you awfully quiet, babe?" Lindsey was gazing with a smile I used to go nuts over.

I somehow feel like I've lost interest in Lindsey altogether. Am I just getting cold feet? Is that what this is? What's going on with me? And I actually can't ignore it. I had also thought about possibly running out of here. But I was told not to. Something told me to stay.