"What do you want me to do Yelena" I yelled at her. The avengers stood around in shock because they never see us argue.
"Don't go on that mission" Yelena yelled back. "Why, why can't I go on a mission that might make a difference in my life" I asked.
"Don't give me that crap because we both went through the same things in that place" she had her finger in my face as I sat down. "Get your finger out of my face" moving her hand away.
"Maybe we should all just sit down and cool off" fury said making us both tell him to "shut up." He put his hands up in defense.
"But you don't understand we went through different things Yelena " I said turning my attention to Yelena.
She put her head down "yeah you know I'm right."
The room fell silent so I spoke up again "all of you are so full of yourselves. It doesn't matter how many times any of you try to be anything else it doesn't matter because we've all killed and we've all regretted it and we can't take it back so that's why we do these missions to make up for it."
"Not if it kills you" Yelena spoke up and I just looked at her. " oh really so you jumping off a building to kill dreykov not knowing wether or not you would make it isn't the same thing all of us do everyday" she put her head down.
"Y/n just stop" Natasha spoke up and I turned to look at her. "You can keep your mouth shut Natalia you have no room to talk when you left us behind to basically die and rot in the red room." She also put her head down.
"Can you just shut up" stark said and I stood up "what did you say stark and when do you ever shut up" I felt a hand grab mine. "Please sit down" Yelena asked quietly.
"Yeah sit down like your girlfriend said petrova" tony said. I rushed over to him but Natasha held me back. "Y/n it's not worth it" I just wanted to punch his punchable face.
"I'm going to kill you stark fuck you man. I have been nothing but loyal to you and you sat and watched them take me away again" I stated and everyone was shocked.
"What is she talking about tony" fury said all eyes on tony. "She's fucking delusional man" he said pointing his finger at me.
"Oh I'm the delusional one I'm not the one who's so paranoid about about being killed by someone you can trust."
"Yeah I said it every meal tony here puts something in your food to help you go to sleep so you don't go in his room and kill him."
It was silent and everyone looked at tony.
"Fuck you y/n" he walked towards me and got right in my face. "Your right I did watch as they took you away it's not like we need you here anyway you don't have anything special."
"And what do you have a heart I can crush with my bare hands."
He looked me dead in the eye and said "I even paid them to take you away."
As a single tear fell from my eye I grabbed Tony by the throat with one hand. I threw him to the ground and punched him so hard my hand had blood on them.
"You don't understand the pain I went through because of you stark. They tourtured me until I was numb and didn't even have the energy to even blink my eye. They made me kill innocent children and people. You didn't got damn see the looks on their faces before I killed them. You have never felt the pain of not being able to control yourself or do things you want to do. You don't hear there screams begging you to stop but you can't and see their faces the horror that lives with you the rest of your life."
At this point I was just punching the floor because I didn't want to kill him. "I was put in a chair and electrocuted for seven months every day if I failed my mission and after I was thrown in a cold cell with nothing to lay on but the cold concrete floor."
My hands were bleeding from punching the floor. I eventually stopped punching and sat on the floor with tears in my eyes I began to laugh. "And to think I actually thought you were my friends."
"I just wanted to be apart of something good don't you understand" I began crying again while all the avengers just looked at the ground with their heads down.
Natasha and Yelena walked over and helped me stand up. "Come on baby let's put something on your hands" Yelena said carefully holding on to me.
"Lena you still love me right. I promise I don't mean to yell" I asked quietly. "If course I do baby."
"Oh and tony I'm so sorry you have money and Ross so far up your ass that you didn't know I have powers" I walked out and the other avengers laughed.
Yelena and Nat sat me down on my bed and Yelena sat beside me. Nat went to go get the first aid kit.
While waiting for Nat , Yelena began cleaning my hands with a wet rag. I winced in pain as she put the cold object on my hands. She noticed and kissed my hands with soft kisses.
I looked at her face and saw a bruise. "Did I do that" she looked up at me "do what." I pointed towards her face where the bruise was located.
"It was my fault really darling" she said trying to not make me mad at myself. I pulled my hands away from her scared I'll hurt her because that's the one thing I fear the most. I even have the worst dreams about it.
"Y/n look it wasn't on purpose okay don't beat yourself up about it" Yelena tried to make me feel better. I backed away from her into the corner as she tried to reach out to me.
"No, no stop I don't want to hurt you please back up."
I kept getting flashbacks of my dreams of when I would hurt Yelena not being able to control myself.
"Natasha ,Wanda come here y/n is losing control again" Yelena shouted but what did she mean by again.
Wanda came rushing in before Natasha. Wanda walked towards me and I said "please wake up I'm so sorry , come on you have to wake up, Please" I was having a flashback.
"Just calm her down and soothe her mind" Yelena told Wanda.
Wanda entered my mind "hey y/n it's me Wanda your best friend. Look your okay it's just a flashback I want you to focus on my voice okay. When your ready I want you to take a deep breath in and then a deep breath out for me can you do that."
"Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh stop it hurts" I yelled having a flashback from the electric chair. They all squinted their eyes from my scream.
"Y/n it's me Wanda just breathe for me and listen to my voice" Wanda said in my mind again.
"Okay" I replied back and took a deep breath in and out. Wanda came closer to me and put her hands on my head.
"Shhh it's okay it's over just breathe okay" Nat came in and wrapped my hand. "Thank you guys for the help I think I got it from here" Yelena said picking me up.
"Just take care of her" Wanda said before leaving and Nat left right after. She laid me on the bed and tucked me and her under the covers.
"Lena I'm sorry" I told her in a tired voice. "Baby you have nothing to be sorry about" Yelena replied. She began kissing my hands "I hate it when you're hurt."
AN: this one had some trauma but I hope you enjoyed. Also give me some more ideas
