"You can't just go and do missions that will get you hurt y/n" Yelena stood up. We were in the middle of a meeting. "So you're saying I'm not good enough for the job" I stood up.
"No I'm saying I don't want you to come back hurt" she tried to make up for what she said. "Well too bad because I have spent my whole life coming back hurt. And I don't need you to tell me if I'm qualified for something or not" I yelled back. "You're being ridiculous right now" she said.
"Oh I'm being ridiculous. You know what ridiculous, the fact that you don't think I can do this mission" I yelled again.
"You know what maybe dreykov was right, you are just an emotional ticking bomb" she yelled out. I felt my throat burn for the hurt.
How could she say such a thing. The whole room went silent. "Well if that's how you really feel then I guess I'm not needed here anymore" I held my tears in and ran out the door.
YELENA POV
"What the hell is wrong with you" Natasha stood up. "What I was being honest" I said like nothing just didn't happen. "Well look where your honesty got you. The one person that would burn the world down just to find you just walked out the door. I mean do you even realized what you just said. You can't say things like that Yelena. I mean you out of all people should know what that torture feels like" she explained.
What was I doing. Why did I say the things I did.
Y/n is a great person. She deserves something so much better than me. "Look you should go apologize before you lose her forever" Natasha said.
I ran out the door to find y/n. I walked in our shared room. She was crying while packing her stuff. "Y/n don't leave" I closed the door. "You know what now that I know what you think of me, I'm going to get out your hair before I blow up for being too emotional" she tried to go past me but I stopped her.
"Look I didn't mean what I said okay. It was in the heat of the moment and all I could think about was how bad the red room was. You're not a emotional bomb. You're strong, independent, and you don't care about what others think of you. I just love you too much to see you get hurt. I don't think I could ever live if you weren't here to live with me. Im sorry, you shouldn't have to leave because I said something out of pocket" she sat down on the bed.
"Yeah well thanks for the apology, but it's going to take more than a apology to fix what you ruined. I think you should get out" she still had tears flowing down her face. "But my stuff is in here" I walked closer to her.
"I'll make sure to tell Nat to send it out to you when I get the chance" she pushed me out the door.
So much for my apology. I really messed up.
Y/N POV
I woke up by myself. I usually wake up to Yelena by my side every morning. I couldn't let her get to me.
I got out of bed and did my morning routine and went to the kitchen to grab breakfast. When I walked in, there were Natasha, Wanda, Peter, Tony, and Yelena sitting.
"Oh hey y/n you seem to be doing great this morning" tony said as I walked in. "Yep, I finally got rid of some junk in my room, I already feel better" I said and Natasha began to laugh.
"So, what do you plan on doing today" Peter asked. "Well, I'm going to training and then I'm going out to town to treat myself with a new outfit, so I can go to party tonight" I chuckled lightly.
"A party, wow I mean I knew you could go low but not that low" Yelena yelled out. "Do any of you hear that. Nope me neither" I said grabbing my water and then walking out.
I went to the training room. I punched the punching bag for about ten minutes and someone walked in. "Oh great you're here to tell me about how low I am again" I stopped punching. "We need to talk okay, what I said was wrong and I apologize. I'm not the best person in the world and I know you hate me, but I love you too much to lose you" Yelena tried to apologize again.
"Fine you want to talk, let's talk" I gave her some gloves, we were going to spar. "Y/n I'm not fighting you" she tried handing me the gloves back. "Either you put the gloves on or we are going to dig some dirt" I said and immediately put the gloves on.
Natasha came in and sat down with Sam and Bucky.
"What are you doing" Yelena asked them. "I've been waiting for this my whole life, and I needed company just in case you don't make it" she laughed.
"I am not fighting you y/n" she said. "Fine" I punched her in the mouth. "You're on" she put her fist up.
She hit me in the chest. I punched her again. It just went back and forth, until I had enough and shoved her up against the wall. She flipped me over her shoulder and sat on top me. I wrapped my legs around her neck to get off of me. I stood up and through the glove at her.
"Maybe next time you can actually hit me instead of fighting with your feelings" I said walking away.
YELENA POV
Y/n walked out. I looked over towards Natasha. "Wow that was worser than that one time we got stuck in the room with those female body builders" Natasha said laughing.
I threw the glove at her. I ran to find y/n. I held the door open before she could shut it in my face. "Y/n please can we just talk, that's all I'm asking, one simple conversation just me and you" she looked me up and down and sighed finally letting me in the room.
"Dekta look I don't know what else to say except I was wrong. I shouldn't have said what I said. It was in the heat of the moment and it slipped out because I was angry with you. It's just I have lost so much and if I ever lost you, it would kill me. Just like it's killing me right now because it feels like your slipping away and all I can do is blame myself. I do stupid things and I mess things up. And I can't lose you not now not ever. I need you" I explained.
She just sat in silence thinking about my words. "Lena you're not losing me. It's just when you say things like that it hurts. I have done everything in my body to get that man out of my mind and for you to say that. It brings everything I buried back up to the surface. Look I love that you worry about me. I love that out of anyone you could have chosen, you chose me. Your funny, smart, caring, and you don't care about what anyone thinks about you. But I need your trust more than anything. If I don't have your trust then what do I have. Look I'm going to get hurt on missions, it's part of the job. You can't expect life to be rainbows and roses, there's always going to be rocks and mountains. I worry about you everyday and every second. In my eyes your perfect just the way you are and I need you too, but we can't spend our days together not trusting each other" she spoke with softness and purity.
Every word that came out of her mouth was true. "So, does that mean I can move my things back in here. I mean I love my sister, but not that much" I said making her laugh. "Yeah you can move your things back in" she laughed and pulled me into a hug.
