ORDER (sequel to Trouble) [TWD]

death wish

"What kind of death wish do you have?" Paula asks Sakiko, "You run your mouth and throw yourself, literally, in harm. What the hell is wrong with you?"

"What isn't wrong with me?" Sakiko laughs.

Michelle had taken Maggie to the other room for questioning. One sound that wasn't normal and Sakiko was making her move.

"You're young. Stupid."

"I promise you, I've been through more in my twenty something years than you have in your seventy."

Paula laughs and it makes Sakiko give her a sadistic smile right back.

"So, I'm guessing I was right. You're not pregnant. But, she is," Paula nods to the door Michelle and Maggie walked out of.

"Nah, she just said that because I had a close call here a few weeks ago. Haven't got around to telling her my test was negative," she comes up with the lie on the spot.

"You're right about that, though. It's the one thing you've said that I actually agree with. Babies.. It's kinda ridiculous," Sakiko continues.

"But, you're married.."

"Doesn't mean I want a little crying walker alarm attached to me and my husband's asses to get us killed. I love him too much to let some ankle biting freak kill him just because I wanted to get dicked down."

Paula scoffs a laugh, but it was a genuine laugh nonetheless.

"That's what I said before all this. My daughters were surprises. I didn't want my husband and I to suffer just because of some snotty brats."

Sakiko tilts her head, taking note of the change in Paula's eyes. Softer. Regret.

"It's just more to lose," Sakiko shrugs.

"Yeah. It was," Paula agrees, "And I lost it all. My husband. My four girls.

A piece of Sakiko softens. Just a little bit.

This woman had a husband, four kids, and God knows what else. She lost everything.

Sakiko thinks about her own family. They had their issues, sure. What family doesn't?

But, her father was still here. Daryl was always gonna be there. Her brother, while they had their fair share of struggles, was still with her, too. Nanami was always her other half. Her husband was probably worried sick right now. But, Ryan was still here and made her happy with each day they got together.

Paula lost everything. And event though Sakiko knows that her life has been far from easy.. She can at least recognize that it's worked out for her.

"And now, I've lost it all again. All because your people came in the middle of the night to kill all of us."

Sakiko felt sick.

--

Sakiko didn't think back on her decisions. Once she decided on something, that was final. Nothing could change how she thought.

"Kiko, we gotta move now," Carol hurries after Paula had left the room.

"Carol.. Are we the bad guys?" Sakiko asks.

"What? No. No," Carol sighs, "Don't let her get in your head. Now, come on. We gotta find Maggie."

Maggie. Find Maggie.

With the new order in place, Sakiko snaps back to herself.

She turns that metal around in her fingers, slicing through the tape.

"What the hell?" Carol asks.

"I've been waiting," she shrugs, jumping up to cut Carol free.

"God, okay. Come on," Carol hurries.

"No, no.. You go. You go find Maggie," Sakiko denies.

"What?"

"Paula and Molly are still close. You go find Maggie and take care of Michelle. I'll lead the other two away and deal with them."

"Not alone," Carol grabs her hand.

Sakiko has always been observant. Daryl taught her to be that way growing up. She could see the act of weakness Carol was putting on. But, she could also see the genuine unwillingness in the older woman.

"I'll be fine. You get Maggie and I'll track you both after. You have to keep her safe. Her and the baby- I.. Please."

"Kiko," Carol gives her a look.

"I've been doing everything I can to find Glenn. I'm supposed to be such a good tracker and I can't fucking do it, Carol. I can't find Glenn. Then, I have to look at Ryan, Maggie, and Hershel and know that I'm failing them by not finding him," she blurts out all her stored away frustration.

The only person that knew just how much it'd been weighing on her was Rosita. No one else could know that Sakiko was a failure.

"And wherever Glenn is, rather he's alive or dead or somewhere in between.. He'd want me to keep Maggie safe. This is how I do that. Please, Carol.. Please just do this for me. For her."

"Okay.. Okay," Carol breathes.

Sakiko leans over to kiss Carol's cheek, hurrying the woman to the other door and forcing her out. Once Carol is further away from where the others were, Sakiko leans her back against the door.

She felt that same feeling arising in her gut.. That one when she faced off against the Wolves that attacked Alexandria.

She told Nanami, but she didn't at the same time. When he was worried about the kind of person he was turning out to be and his feelings for Carl..

Sakiko admitted that she couldn't look herself in the mirror. That was because of what she did to the Wolves. She killed so many of them she lost count. And for most of those, she did it with a smile on her face.

Daryl had told her before that killing people wasn't easy. But, she had to know that she was doing it for a reason- not just for the sake of spilling blood.

These people, these Saviors.. They already attacked once. They were going to kill Sasha, Abraham, and Daryl. If Nanami hadn't come back when he did to help at home, they would've tried to kill him, too.

This was the end. Sakiko was going to finish this before it even has the chance to start.

Daryl might have blown he men to smithereens on the road. But, Sakiko was always more of a hand to hand combat kind of girl.

She kicks herself off the wall, heading to where Donnie was still unconscious. She kicks him onto his back, unwrapping the tourniquet Molly had put on him. Taking hold of the stick, she snaps it in two.

Raising up, Sakiko stomps Donnie's head in until she's certain he's dead and not coming back.

Then, she walks out the doors to the sound of gunfire.

𝒶𝓊𝓉𝒽𝑜𝓇 𝓇𝒶𝓂𝒷𝓁𝑒𝓈--

kiko boutta fuck some bitches bc she is The Bitch

but also hey shes lowkey been going through some shit not being able to find glenn but shes also like bey these are my issues so they will stay my issues aight