Creepy Experiences

The Fall

May 19, 2025

TW: Gore, Violence, Torture, Mentions of Starvation, Sexual Assault, and Mention of Force Feeding. 

Before I went to bed, I had an idea to create a spell based on my astrological placements. Earlier on that day, I learned that tapping into the energy of the Venus sign is what attracts love and money. A person was talking about how doing makeup or dressing like your Venus sign isn't enough because it's more important to tap into the energy of the sign. I have my Venus in Aries, so I wrote and spoke aloud some affirmations for that. 

After that, I went to YouTube and saw a yandere ASMR on my home page. Normally, I don't listen to that kind of stuff, but a spirit guide encouraged me to listen. I also asked if a specific person wanted to put me in a situation like the one in the video and they said yes. During the video, I had an idea to try to have a vision that would give me more details about this scenario. In the vision, I was tied to a punching bag and suspended. I heard myself screaming and Jeff approached me. The room was very dark and his voice was scratchy. By the way, I was watching this interaction in 3rd person. 

A tear fell from my cheek when I saw him and he said, "Shh, crying isn't going to help you now." His hand went down my face and he pressed his head to the center of my chest. "Your heart is mine," he said and I shook my head. Then he spun the punching bag and when the bag stopped spinning, his lips were on mine. The kiss felt possessive. A few moments later, I saw an image of EJ standing a few feet away. The room was dark, but I saw the mask. The ASMR was playing and after this point, I opened my eyes and paused the video so I could write the vision down. The ASMR talked about a yandere who was frustrated that the person they liked was ignoring them, so they kidnapped the target and had sex with them. 

An hour later, I went to bed. First off, spirits can read my mind so I tend to say things to them in my mind and they respond. There was a shift and I felt scared. There was a spirit and I was screaming at them (within my head) to leave. Normally, I'm not so hostile, but I felt like a different version of me had taken over. When telling spirits to leave doesn't work, I envision harming them to banish them. I pictured myself in a dark room with a body in front of me and I imagined scratching their face and upper body. Blood was flying everywhere and my nails were very sharp. Then I imagined sinking my teeth into the nape of their neck and nearly ripping their head off. I was screaming at the spirit all while doing this. The spirit was holding me closer during this point and completely enveloped me. It felt like they were cradling my head and holding my neck.

I got the impression that they weren't scared of me even though I was focused on harming them. I stopped screaming and my inner voice sounded normal. Looking back on this interaction, I think a part of me knew what this spirit was capable of and was scared of them. After that, my attention turned toward the spirit and I felt unsettled that my behavior had shifted that drastically. Normally, I don't go to such an extreme.  I asked the spirit if they were a cp and got a yes. They also gave me a name. Then I started having thoughts about how I might not be dealing with any cps. As I was thinking, the spirit's frustration increased and their energy felt intimidating. They insisted that they were a cp and that the name they gave me was accurate. After that, I asked them to do something only that spirit would do to me to prove who they were.

I was trying to fall asleep at that point, but they touched me sexually to keep me awake. Later on, I think I woke up at 3 and then at 5. Since I couldn't sleep, I asked the spirit if I could channel a scenario between us and they agreed. I wanted to channel a scenario where the spirit would experiment on me. I was trying to confirm if I was dealing with the real deal. In the scenario, the spirit force-fed me a raw chicken, kissed me, regurgitated something in my mouth, took a bite out of a raw egg and shoved the rest down my throat, and cut a symbol on my torso. The scenario ended when I passed out from the pain. Their voice sounded intimidating, cold, and remorseless. I felt like I was being treated like an experiment. During the channeling, I kept on refusing to eat because I didn't want to get sick and when I brought that up, the spirit insisted that I eat anyway as if they wanted it to happen.  I also got the sense that I was being starved and that's why I ultimately ate the chicken. I was forced to eat several pieces too. One of the things the spirit said during the scenario was that if I puked, then they'd force me to eat it. 

Despite the disturbing things that I had heard, I was exhausted since it was 6 am and tried to get more sleep. The spirit continued to touch me sexually but I tried to ignore them. Before getting up, the spirit kept insisting that they wanted me to stay in bed longer, but I stopped listening. After I showered, I saw two long red scratches on my face. A few hours later, I did a dice roll before leaving my house. I asked my spirit guides and higher self what the consequences of my actions would be. I rolled the number 4266. I'm going to state the main messages I got from these numbers. The combo of 4 and 2 made me think of the possibility of living with a romantic partner. I also mentioned that people with Taurus, Libra, Scorpio, and Aries energy could be significant. I have Taurus, Libra, and Aries placements. I also thought of 666 since 4 and 2 add up to 6. 6 is the number of soulmates, routines/work and it reminds me of Lucifer and the Devil card. In terms of relationships, the Devil card can represent someone possessive and addicted to their lover. The final number was 9 and that represents being close to an ending, travel, and expansion. It is also associated with Saggitarius, the zodiac who cares about freedom. 

There is a duality between being owned/controlled by someone and wanting to be free/choose yourself. 

I made a mistake. If there were any cps here last night, I think they are convinced that I'm like them. The spirit who I channeled second wants to turn me into a vampire. That's why they weren't alarmed when I was picturing myself scratching and biting them. They want me to unleash that part of me. I've asked this spirit before how they would turn me into a vampire and they said that they would starve, perform witchcraft, and force me to eat raw meat/drink blood. I didn't see the symbol they carved into me, but it could have a significance. Even if these threats don't come to fruition, I should banish this spirit. 

Feel free to make guesses on who this spirit is if they are a cp. It isn't a smart idea for me to disclose their identity though, so I won't agree or disagree.