Jeih's Poems

I didn't lose you, I was your LOST

I didn't lose you, I was your LOST

To whom I considered friends wherein time I never got in touch again
You need not me
What I have will never shed its warmth, chills and spice to you again.
For I am reborn
I may not have the luxuries you enjoy
Beautiful house
Cars
Or even expensive gadgets
But what I do have is a genuine soul
A family that I call home
An ordinary life where I can roam and
my genuine smiles that I carelessly shared.
Time I invested with no hesitations
And yet just like a greedy explorer
You plucked me out of my soil when I was once aesthetically soothing.
Enjoying what little fragrance I can share
But when I withered and my thorns struck your palms.
You threw me away and stomped me like I wasn't amounting to anything at all
Little did you know that the petals I shed
when I became despicable and putrid;
New lives have descended from me, yet I can never be grateful for straying me away from where I truly belong.
Those new flowers will never grow if I weren't smothered and blown by those who cherished what was left of me.
No justice is that enough to put you all to blame for what I have been.
Karma took me like a gift from the heavens
She caressed even the spikes of my heart and gave me life
A life that I'll live full enough 'til my last breath.
Still the memory of those who left me is still valid and significant.
It led me to know and love me.
I can give a little thanks and a gaze of love.
But even so as you all seek me again
You'll never will
For the flowers that have outgrown my past form
will continue to multiply and move on
You see I didn't lose you all.
I was your lost.