The Sands Of Tshani 2

Part 8

**Olunje

Anam doesn't get it. She just doesn't understand how much I love her and how much I want to be with her. She keeps hurting me with words over and over again. I know people think I'm mentally ill, I've seen how my mother looks at me and honestly I don't care because I know I'm not sick. Am I wrong for being in love with the girl of my dreams? I don't even understand why she's acting like this lately. It has to be that Marcel guy, he probably gave her some love potion thing because the Anam I know is very sweet and kind and caring and she would never talk to me like that. After storming out I went to chill outside on the other side of the house and started smoking, it's not something I normally do unless I'm stressed out or feeling insomniac. After my session I went inside bumping into mom in the kitchen. Ever since the incident with Zanele, things between her and I have been.... Awkward.

Me: morning

Her: mmh

Me: mom?

She didn't turn or say anything.

Me: mom I'm sorry about your friend

She turned and slapped the daylights out of me and when I turned she slapped the other side of my cheek pissing me off. I wanted to hit her back, I was so pissed I stopped myself when my hand was already on the bread knife on the table

Her: what? You going to stab me to death like you did my friend huh?

Me: if you test me then yes

Her: go ahead!

I looked at her once before getting out of the kitchen. I needed to be alone, I don't know where this anger I had came from. It was all sudden and happened when least expected. One minute I'm happy and the next I'm angry or sad. My moods were like those of a pregnant woman, my emotions were all over the place, sometimes I'd get so energetic it was crazy. I decided to go and check on Anam, she seems to be the only one making me sane lately. I went in and she was sitting on the bed reading the bible

Me: where did you get that?

Her: from Samke

Me: where did she get it?

Her: you'll have to ask her

Me: what are you reading?

Her: 1st Corinthians 13 vs 4

Me: what does it say?

Her: 4 Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; 5 it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; 6 it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. 7 Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. 8 Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away. 9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10 but when the perfect comes, the partial will pass away. 11 When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I gave up childish ways. 12 For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known. 13 So now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love.

Me: nice

Her: yeah

Me: I'm sorry. For everything

She closed her bible and put it beside her.

Her: if you really mean you're sorry Olunje, you will let me go home. You will give me the chance to actually fall in love with you out of my own freewill rather than forcing me too. This, what you doing, it's never worked for anyone and it will never work for you