The Sands Of Tshani 2

Part 33

**Marcel

It's been a month since last seen or heard from Anam. Yes, last time I saw or spoke to her was at that party, I've tried to contact her but she doesn't get back to me, she never does. I've given up. My focus was on school and nothing else. Bri and I have become pretty close and as for Merissa I have not seen or heard from her which was a good thing I guess. Life was pretty much as it was before Anam and I became a thing. Bri and I were on our way back from class, she was pretty cool and humble and everything sweet.

Her: has Harvard responded?

Me: been a while since I last checked my emails ey

Her: do you still want to study there? With everything that's happened between you and Anam

I shrugged, I honestly did not know whether I still want to go there or not. I mean Anam was one of the reasons I even considered it but now things are different, I don't know where we stand her and I. I never thought I would use this word to describe my relationship but it's complicated.

Me: I don't know anymore. Too much has happened, what if she has someone else? I don't think I'll be able to sit there and watch her be with somebody else Bri

Her: is that the only reason?

Me: yeah. I love her Bri but she doesn't see that

Her: it's not that she doesn't see it Marcel, you are her first boyfriend and you really hurt her with that Merissa thing. She needs time

Me: time to what Bri? It's been two months now and still nothing.

Her: we deal with these things differently, all of us Marcel. She has never been in a relationship until you came along, you promised to be a certain guy to her and then you went on and gave your ex more attention than you did her. to her your ex means more than she does to you and it's not easy to move past that. How does she know that what happened wouldn't happen again?

Me: maybe if she had spoken to me we would have found a way forward. Communication is key Bri, a relationship without proper communication is doomed to fail. I don't know how many mistakes I've made in this relationship but I know I've accounted for all of them. I feel like my efforts to try and be the best I can be to her were nothing but trash to her. this is the same person I gave up my dream for

Her: do you have any regrets?

I thought for a second. That was a good question. Did I have any regrets???

Me: I really don't know. I mean I did everything

Her: and that's ok. you did your best you could, you taught her a lot and there's some things that she taught you. That's what relationships are about, helping each other grow. The things you did for her were out of love and not because you were expecting something in return. Nobody asked you to do anything but you did it because you love her and because you wanted to

I nodded

Her: if you are Anam are meant to be with each other then you guys will be. I'm not saying give up and I'm also not saying don't give up, do what you feel is right for you. Sometimes selfishness will take you a long way buddy and as for Harvard, it's a great school. You'd be an idiot not to attend there!

She said with a comforting smile. Everything Bri said made some sense to me, sometimes you can't force it be something. you just got to lets things be you know?! let the relationship be what it was intended to be. If she and I were made for each other than at some point in life, we will end up together.

Me: I understand psychology is one of our majors but girl! you sure know how to make a person do some soul searching.

She laughed