The Sands Of Tshani 2

Part 13

**Marcel

Nate was right behind me not saying anything. He watched me make the call. I was scared to hear what Sipho might just tell me right now. I feared the worst. What if she was dead?

//Me: hey what's wrong with Anam?

Him: I don't know how to tell you this over the phone

My heart started beating really fast. This obviously meant to expect bad news and no less.

Me: please just tell me

Him: Anam tried to kill herself

Me: excuse me what?

Him: she took lots of pills. It's really bad bruh

I kept quiet. My mind literally stopped at that moment, it was like I was having a really bad dream and someone just needed to wake me up from it. not my bunny. She wouldn't dare do such a thing. How could she have been so selfish? I know no-one knows what she's going through but to commit suicide? That's a bit drastic even for her.

Me: how is she?

Him: your mom and my mine did their best. We just waiting on her to wake up

I couldn't say anything. This felt like the time Robin tried to kill herself, I still had images of my sister and her weak pulse. The bottle of pills she took. Memories just came rushing back. It's true what they say about a traumatic experience, you never really forget, your brain just supresses the memory until something similar to it triggers it again and then you back to square one.

Him: I'll uhhhmmm keep you posted ok.

Me: thanks. Cy I'm sorry

Him: yeah. Me too//

I'm not much of a crier, last time I cried was when my grandma died and I think that was the last time I ever cried. I just froze there not knowing what to do.

Nate: is everything ok?

Me: I have to go to South Africa.

Him: Marcel what is it? what's wrong with Anam?

Me: she tried to kill herself Nathan. Please just go back and you'll tell me what I missed

Him: keep me posted ok.

I managed to stop a cab to take me to the hotel to get my stuff.

Me: I will

Him: she's going to pull through

I just nodded and told the driver where to drop me off. We got to the hotel and I asked him to wait there for me so he can drive me to the airport. I got to my room and took my stuff then went to check out at reception, I called the airport on my way there booking a last minute ticket and I was lucky enough to get the last plane available headed to SA. I paid the cab, went to check in and waited to board the plane. We left at 8pm. I kept praying and praying that she wakes up any minute now. How could Anam do this? How could she do this to us? I couldn't sleep at all so I tried to keep busy by watching tv but that too wasn't working so I put my earphones on and blocked out the world. So much for going to CH, I've probably just lost my one chance to work there but I didn't care because my girlfriend needed me, well that's if she was going to make it. I didn't want to believe the worst but you can never be too certain. Not everyone survives death, what if this was her time?

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**Robin

I was mad at Anam! Couldn't she at least give us a heads up at least? I mean I did when I tried to and when I did it was for a good cause. I know I sound ridiculous right now but I can't lose her, not like this. I get it, it's not easy but nobody said it would be right? god didn't say there wouldn't be weapons but he promised that they wouldn't prevail (or prosper). I don't understand how the one person who is stronger than anyone I know or have ever met could do such, what could have been this bad that she would resort to this? She gave me hell for trying to kill myself and then she goes on and does the same? Talk about hypocrisy at its best.