The Sands Of Tshani 2

Part 43

**Sinovuyo

A few days before Anam came home, Gogi and I got an unpleasant visit from Olunje and his grandmother. Mom chased them out with a broom calling them all sorts of names. Telling them to leave this village and never come back. It was funny though because normally mom is all about forgiving but not this time around, she wanted nothing to do with them. Seeing that boy made me want to strangle him, he has put my daughter through hell. He murdered someone cold blood in front of her, Anam had nightmares because of him, she committed suicide because of him, he almost killed her, he almost raped her and then he has some nerve to come into my home and claim that he got the help he needed and was ok now. said he was sorry for the way things turned out, apologised for his behaviour and that he was on meds now so he wasn't a danger to anyone. My only problem was that what happens when my daughter sees him? Anam was doing so well without him and knowing that he was in a psych ward and then he comes back? My baby doesn't need this, she just doesn't. Anam was doing so well, she was happy and carefree and not scared anymore. She seemed fine until the mention of his name, hearing he was back brought about the trauma she had endured while in his captivity. That boy ruined my daughter and then he thinks him coming to apologise is supposed to make things better? It doesn't work like that. Anam is fragile, it doesn't take much to break her, it never did even as a little child. The rape just made things worse to what she already was before. Tshani may have made my baby but it also broke her, she'll never be the same person she was before. Her being in the states was meant to be good for her but clearly it was that good because she came back with a belly which she herself clearly did not know about. I went to visit her as much as I could but I also had to go and check on my mother whom I haven't seen for a week. I got to Tshani and parked my car in the yard and went inside the house, mom was watching tv, she got up to hug me when she saw me.

Her: uphi uAnam? (where's Anam?)

Me: she's still in hospital

Her: Why? What's wrong with her? you left for a week Sinovuyo without telling me anything and then you come back without my baby. What have you done to her?

Me: I didn't do anything to her Ma, I haven't said Anything to her for that matter. Anam is in hospital because she is not ready to get out yet, her doctor says she fell into depression and if she had continued feeling the way she did then she would lose the baby. Mama I have not said anything that might stir up trouble or endanger her life. As much as I'm disappointed in her but she is my baby and I want her to get out of that hospital with that baby still alive and growing in her womb.

Ok so maybe she didn't need to find out like this but mom was just stressing me put on top of the stress I have already. Anam wouldn't be able to handle a miscarriage. I know it may seem as though I'm making up excuses or I think my baby is not strong enough but in all honesty she isn't. she is not fit for other things. A miscarriage would kill her. it hasn't even been a week home and already she was depressed, she had a panic attack, her pressure is still high, her baby was not safe... it's too much for her and the child. She couldn't hide the shock on her face after realising I had lied to her. Gogi loved Anam more than anything in this world, even Sipho couldn't compete.

Her: so my child has been in hospital for a week because of you? Because you are so disappointed that you can't even say anything to her? I'm not stupid Sinovuyo. I called Buhle to come over and she told me how you couldn't talk to her, how you were so disappointed in her. the look in your eyes. How Sipho spoke to her. you and that son of yours are the reason that child is depressed. I'm not stupid and if she dare loses this child

Me: mama please

When I left Tshani that day all I told mom was that I needed to go to Mthatha to fetch Anam, the last thing I wanted to worry her about was this. Ever since Nam went to Tshani, mom has been having heart problems so if I had told her about Anam collapsing, it would have sent her straight into cardiac arrest and that's the last thing we need right now. so all I told her was that Anam was that Anam was pregnant and there were complications with the pregnancy, I told her that the baby was growing in the wrong place so they need to keep her there for monitoring and making sure that the baby moves to the right place. It was better than telling her the real truth.