The Sands Of Tshani 2

Part 11

**Sinovuyo Ndamase

Hearing your daughter speak like that is heart breaking. You know how they always say physical pain is nothing compared to emotional pain? Yeah well that's exactly what I was experiencing right now, even a shot straight to the heart would have been bearable than that. Anam's words cut deeper than a knife would have. I've never felt like the worst mother like I did at that time and nothing I say or do would ever make her think of me any better. I screwed things up for myself, I made my daughter hate me. I know she said she didn't hate me but truth be told she did but she just couldn't bring herself to probably because mom was in the room. My phone rang and I checked the screen, it was Sipho's father. The last person I wanted to talk to right now but I took it anyway.

//Me: hello

Him: hey Sino how are you?

Me: I'm good thanks and how are you?

Him: also good thanks. I heard you got your daughter back

Me: yeah I did

Him: that's great, I'm glad to hear that

Me: Tabiso what do you want?

Him: excuse me? What do you mean?

Me: its past 7, close to 8. You are supposed to be with your wife and daughter. What are you doing calling me?

Him: I just wanted to check how you were doing and how your daughter is also doing

Me: she's been through hell and now she's back. Is that all?

Him: why are you being so cold?

Me: Tabiso you and I have no business together. I was your side chick, we had sex and I fell pregnant. Our son is old enough so you and I don't need to have a relationship

Him: haibo Sino

Me: I appreciate everything you have done for me with Samke and getting me in touch with Mr Ndaba. I really am thankful but our relationship ends there. Please don't ever contact me again//

I didn't even wait for his response. Maybe I was mad about the Anam thing but I feel like Tabiso is a distraction I don't need in my life. He and I were done 20 years ago so basically he and I can't have any relationship from here on, he is married for Christ sake and his daughter is pregnant and she needs him more than me. My life is a mess on its own and Tabiso is the last thing I want to trouble myself with. He tried calling me but I blocked his calls as a whole and got on my bed and curled myself up in a foetus position. A while later I heard the door open and close and I felt the person sit on my bed behind me.

"mom"

It was Sipho. He said patting me on the back. I wiped my tears and turned to look at him.

Him: I brought you tea

I smiled faintly.

Me: thank you

Him: granny told me what happened with Anam

Me: oh

Him: you know she didn't mean it right? she's just confused and traumatised and angry that you hid the will thing from her

Me: you didn't see her Sipho. The look in her eyes said it all, she meant every word. The things we say when we angry are the things we've always wanted to say but never really got the chance to when we weren't angry

Him: but mom we both know that Anam loves you and right now she's just going through a difficult time that's all. She didn't mean the things she said.

I just nodded. It was no use arguing with Sipho, he was as stubborn as his father. I let him believe what he wanted to believe. I know my daughter, I know when she means something and when she doesn't and earlier on, she meant every single word.