The Sands Of Tshani 2

Part 47

**Anam

I was back in school and still very much pregnant, I went back to school after a week from Gogi's funeral. It wasn't easy leaving home and leaving mom alone in that house but life had to go on, it's what Gogi would have wanted of me. I had seen Olunje, he apologised and I was cool with him but we weren't friends nor did we have much to say to each other especially with my grandmother gone. I can't say I was happy but as Marcel had told me, one step at a time. it was now September and my hormones were haywire, by that I mean one minute I loved Marcel and wanted to be in his arms and the next I hated him with a passion but not once did he give up or fight me because he understood me. It wasn't easy being in school because as she grew inside me the more I wanted to spend everyday indoors sleeping. Lisa was my sleeping buddy and alarm, she literally moved her bed into my room... I know it's crazy but I needed someone who would drag me to class kicking and screaming if need be and thanks to her I didn't miss a day in class or fail so her being my roommate was a good thing. Ever since I came back, I haven't spoken to Sam. He was avoiding me and that really hurt me, normal me would say he was being dramatic and he was going to get over whatever it is that's bothering me but the pregnant me was hurt by him keeping his distance from me at all costs. Even in class he would sit at the back and leave class 5 minutes before the class ends and then I wouldn't see him. the rest of the squad was ok with me and my pregnancy. as annoying as I was to them, they loved me and treated me like a queen. They were truly the best.

I don't know if I once mentioned this but Gogi had inherited money from the death of Marcel's grandmother and her inheritance was now mine, she shockingly had a will of which there wasn't much really just that the house in Tshani was Cy's and the money was for her great grandchild.

Marcel and I were intimate more than before, I loved sex, I craved it and wanted it in the most weirdest times, so Marcel and I would disappear to his room when I was free and so was he and straight after sex I would get dressed and head to my place, I never really slept in his bed. My baby loved her father when he was breathing heavy on top of me and hated him when he tried to cuddle me... I don't know whether that makes sense but it makes sense in my mind...what I'm basically saying is that I hated cuddles, they annoyed the shiit out of me. Marcel would just laugh at me being all dramatic over cuddles, he had gotten used to it but sometimes he did it on purpose just to tick me off. Robin and I still had our Saturday meet ups and she loved me, a little too much or it was probably the baby but she was too close for comfort really.

We were in our dorm going up to Liah's room, Lisa and I when we met up with Sam walking down the stairs. This guy was still dreamy but I was mad at him. don't get me wrong, I didn't have feelings for him or want him for that matter, I just missed my friend that's all. It was our first time being this close to each other ever since I came back. He greeted us and walked away but I held his arm.

Lisa: I'll meet you in Liah's room

Me: sure

With that Lisa walked away and left me with Sam.

Him: what do you want?

Me: is that how you talk to your friend's now?

Him: look I don't have all day here

Me: what did I ever do to you?

Him: why do you care?

Me: because I miss my friend Sam.

Him: we were friends but not anymore

Me: tell me why and I'll let you go about your life

Him: you pregnant with his child. You and I don't stand a chance anymore

Me: I'm confused

Him: I loved you Anam, what am I saying?! I still do but I can't do this anymore. I can't be your friend knowing every well that you will never be mine. I thought I could do it but now you having his child which means you and I will never happen even though I still have hope but I can't compete with your baby daddy