The Sands Of Tshani 2

Part 28

**Anam

I didn't know whether I should ask or not. my mind kept telling me to bring the topic up but I kept shutting it down, if Sam wants to talk then he'll talk right?

"what?"

I was brought back to reality by Sam's bold voice with an accent.

Me: what?

Him: I can feel you staring at me every two minutes and looking away. What is it?

Could this be my chance to actually talk to him about this? I mean he asked didn't he?

Him: what's on your mind Anam?

Me: nothing

Him: is that why you look at me and shake your head as if you in denial every two seconds?

Me: I didn't do that

Him: whatever you say! You'll talk when you ready to anyway.

He was so focused on the road and not even looking at me by mistake.

Me: Robin told me what happened to Samantha

I blurted it out and then put my hand on my mouth. Nice one Anam! Just nice!

Him: what exactly did she tell you?

Me: everything she knows. She and your sister were friends, you and her had a fling

Him: ok

He said without giving anything away. Now I was just confused.

Me: ok?

Him: yeah. You know stuff so ok

He didn't even turn to look at me not even once. I folded my arms sulking and looking outside the window. One minute he warns me to stay away from the girls but now that I know what he refused to tell me it's an issue? Really? He parked his car in front of my dorm, I tried opening the door but he had locked it.

Me: please unlock the door

Him: something is bothering you Anam. What is it?

Me: really? Please just unlock this door

Him: I'm not unlocking this door until you tell me what is bothering you

Me: nothing is bothering me

Him: if it's about the girls I warned you about, go ahead and be friends with them. Learn the hard way

Me: that's not what is bothering me Samuel. What bothers me is you pretending like she never existed. She was your twin

Him: and I couldn't do anything to save her! is that what you want to hear? She was gang raped by old men and I wasn't there to save her. is that what you want to hear huh? that I blame myself that she got raped, I blame myself for letting her go out that night, she is dead because I failed to be a brother to her

Hearing him say what he was made me think of my brother and what I put him through. I actually understood what Sipho went through when I was raped and tried to commit suicide. The things we put our brothers through thou. He made me see why they are as protective as they are of us because they fear us getting hurt and them not being able to do anything about it.

Him: there you have it. you can go

He unlocked the door.

Me: Sam it was...

Him: wasn't my fault? Oh please Anam. What would you know huh?

Me: there was nothing you could have done to save her Sam