ꜱɪʟᴇɴᴛʟʏ ᴘᴇʀɪꜱʜ

puppy love

february 5

my phone rings as ms.amy is talking, she furrows her eyebrows, "your mom?"

"no mam," i say glancing at the screen, i smile only slightly as i do.
"go on and answer," ms amy says as i bring my phone to my ear. "hello beautiful" billies voice rang through my ears and bounced off the walls of my head. every time she speaks, my heart gets that flutter that makes me forget everything.

"hi" i whisper into the phone, "i have to call you later im kinda in the middle of something."

i hear billie groan "hurry i have a surprise for you."

i grin, simply because i couldn't imagine what was in store for me.
i hang up the phone with an okay, and watch as ms.amy raises her eyebrows.

"new friend" she questions with a witty smirk on her face. "more or less" i responded with a little laugh.

she nods, "well that's nice. let's carry on."
-
when i make it to my apartment billie is standing outside my door with the most perfect pink tulips ever.

"hello pretty girl" she greets me as i hug her, she smells of vanilla, it's lovely.
"billie," i say with a pout, "these are so nice."

i unlock my apartment door and put my bag and the flowers down on the table.
billie watches me as i grab a vase to put her flowers in, she's quite dressed up; a black button-up with matching pants.

"what's the occasion," i say, watching her smile raise.  "i said i have a surprise," billie laughs "go get ready, hurry."

i nod as i head to my room with a shake of my head. i walk into my bathroom, take my pills and stare at myself. i cannot believe billie is doing all of this for me, even the simple flowers make my heart beat rapidly.

i laugh at myself and look through my closet to find something to wear.
i don't think it healthy for me to think of billies entire being this much. i mean there is such thing as talking to something too much, loving too much, even simply being around them too much.

i mean i see billie every other day now, to the point where i hardly ever see tiana anymore. and i am not complaining, i loved being around billie and there is absolutely nothing wrong with her but i'm beginning to believe i've become infatuated with her being.

i throw my thoughts aside as i slip on the black dress that's practically been collecting dust in my closet.
i've realized i cannot reach the zipper and it absolutely pains me to think of billie zipping it up simply because it is so cliche.

i push it aside and get in my mirror to put my hair up. billie walks in as i do, staring at me with an unreadable expression plastered on her face.

"what," i asked shyly, billie looks me up and down for the third time " dawn i don't think i can ever express how beautiful you really are."

i blush, and god i cant almost feel my knees go weak, i am silently trying to keep my composure but i'm afraid i might lose it.

"thank you billie" i whispered, as i reach to put my gold necklace on. billie nods, coming behind me to hook it on.
it is inevitable to push aside this cliche moment so i just let it happen as i feel her hand run down my back.

it causes me to shiver and i want to say i hear her chuckle but i don't want to believe it. billie zips me up as i stare at her in the mirror and for only a couple of seconds, she lets her eyes linger on the zipper.
-
"give me your hand dawn" billie laughed as she helped me out of the car, i was struggling because of these heels that i hardly wore, and might i add billie has blindfolded me.

"billie i physically cannot stand without looking first im sorry" i joked but i was quite serious. i needed to see where i was going unless i'd lose it.

"fine."

she takes the blindfold off as i stand and soon replaces the blindfold with her hand. "this better" her breath hits my ear and oh my goodness i think i might pass out.

she grabs my waist with her other hand as she leads me to god knows where.
if felt like hours before billie finally says "okay ready?"

i nod, and my eyes adjust to the sight. a beautiful rooftop dinner with lights that made her skin glow more than ever.

the skyline, the stars, even simply the glass table and black decor; it was all too much.

"you like it," billie says, "i thought i should take you somewhere other than my house, you know?"

i sighed "oh billie—" i couldn't even get my words out of my mouth "this is all just— wow."

billie laughs as i hug her, "thank you so much for this, really, but you didn't have to."

"bien sûr mon amour," billie says "mais pour toi je ferais n'importe quoi."

i smile and let go as billie reaches to pull out my chair for me.
she sits across from me, "hungry" billie asked as she slides over a menu from the restaurant.

i can't quite look over it just yet, my eyes are glued to the glimmer that swam in her eyes. billie was so gorgeous, so perfect, id never met anyone like her.

"what" billie had dragged, "you're making me nervous."

i rolled my eyes at that statement "you're nervous? i've been shaking since you zipped up my dress!"

all billie does is shake her head with that big smile on her face, and that alone sends me into orbit.

"i have a very strong attraction to you dawn," billie says so very bluntly im caught off guard.

"is that so," i asked teasingly watching as the blush coated her freckled cheeks evenly. billie nods, "who couldn't? you're perfect."

"not even close" i replied with a small laugh.  billie scoffs, "who do you know that has perfect doe eyes, the ones that hardly ever crease? who do you know that has hair as fluffy and healthy as yours, and do not even get me started on your lips because i can go—"

i cut billie off right there because i cannot take the embarrassment, "okay okay— i get it."

she nods "and who do you know that has naturally ginger hair? come on, like that's the fucking definition of perfect!"

i shake my head "i appreciate you billie, thank you for all of the wonderful compliments."

she bows "only for my queen."

i roll my eyes yet again, it makes me laugh how billie can see such a perfect human in my being. i am far too dismantled to be as perfect as she says.

but if she truly does believe all of the things she says then i wouldn't mind it. i don't mind hearing those awfully corny compliments for the rest of my life.

it is probably too soon to be thinking of a life with billie, and i know that quickly enough i will be knocked down back to reality and forced to suffer with the problems of my malfunction eventually but for now, i want to enjoy being in the clouds.

i want to enjoy being trapped in a mind that only thinks of the future, i want to enjoy feeling seen and heard.
i want to enjoy feeling at peace.

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