ꜱɪʟᴇɴᴛʟʏ ᴘᴇʀɪꜱʜ

enchanted memories

not proof read 😊

june 14

the breeze blew as the leaves brushed against each other. i liked the sound of them dancing together, i just loved summer.
it was so beautiful, from the bloomed flowers to even the bumble bees, i love every bit.

i couldn't help but smile knowing i got to experience it one last time.

"what are you smiling at," billie asked me. i turned to face her, the sun shined onto billies beautiful skin, now tan from the fresh summer sun. her feckless evident and her eyes an ocean blue as she handed me yet another dandelion she had picked from the ground.

"thank you" i giggle as she smiles brightly, "im smiling at the earth."

billie nods, "why?"

"because i love being alive," i say "it's a blessing."

billie nods again, smiling at my words "i love being alive too."

i give her a warm smile and continue my stare.
billie wanted to have a "date day" as it's our five months and the fact that we hadn't been on a date in so long.
it wasn't truly much, simply a picnic but i didn't mind.

i took a bite of some cookies she made, still warm and delicious. billie smiles, "you're so beautiful."

i roll my eyes playfully as it's her millionth time complimenting me this afternoon, "that's you, angel," i responded.

she looked so happy, so giggly, and just overall vibrant.

i still have yet to find a moment to tell billie how my well-being is because she just looked so happy. when i was sicker than ever, she always looked so concerned and sad— i just don't want her to feel like that again.

"do you want to go by the water after this" billie asked me, a smile still on her lips for no reason at all.
i turn my head to look at her and nod, though my head was pounding and i felt i could've dropped asleep right here right now.

"okay," billie says, taking a sip of her water.

i reach out and move pieces of hair out of her face before running my thumb over her eyebrow that just couldn't seem to go down.
running my thumb now down her nose and to her lips billie giggles "what're you doing?"

i shrug, i just wanted to touch her face, it was so beautiful. sometimes i liked to feel the structure of it, to remind myself billies a real person and not an angel sent from heaven.

i kiss her, billie smiling against my lips as i do. her hand touches my face as her lips mold on mine.
billie and i's lips were just made to dance with each other, the rhythm and the taste just all felt too perfect.

pulling away i lick my lips, the taste of billies sweet chapstick remaining on them. billies cheeks flush a bright pink, as she moves her hair to cover her face.

"im so in love with you, it's crazy" billie shakes her head, laughing.

"and im so in love with you," i say in return, interlocking our hands as the wind blows once more.
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i listen to billie mumble angrily in french as she fails the same mission in GTA, yet again. my head lay in her lap as a blanket wrapped over my body.
i was supposed to be asleep right now, but i've been watching billie play for at least forty-five minutes.

and i don't mean to be cheesy but it was cute watching her get frustrated, yet also trying to be still and quiet because again, she thinks i'm asleep.

i loved laying here with her. i loved doing anything with billie, creating memories for me to look back on.

to watch her smile, to watch her dance, to watch her eat, sleep, anything— it was just a dream.

being in love with billie was so refreshing, and the best part about being with we her was knowing i can be me without having to worry about doing something wrong.

i mean it amazes me how fast i fell in love with her, how i didn't even mean to do so. her voice, and her eyes, the way she talks to me, the way she cares for me, loves me,
it's so beautiful.

"fuck" billie says, failing the mission yet again. i groan, as she tosses herself back into the couch, my head quite literally bobbling as she did.

"oh shit," billie says taking hold of my head. she kisses my forehead repeatedly, "did i wake you up? i'm sorry."

i giggle, "i'm okay billie, you didn't wake me."

she laughs before kissing my forehead one more time "okay."
i kiss her nose before getting comfortable with my head in her lap yet again only now billies staring at me with a smile on her face.

"what," i asked her because billie always tended to do this. she always stared at me, with a smile and her eyes focusing on my mine.
and usually, i did not like to be stared at, as i begin to think everything wrong about me is on display, but with billie i didn't care, i didn't care what she saw because i knew billie thought i was the most beautiful thing ever to walk.

"what billie," i asked again, blushing at her little smirk.

"i can't look at my girlfriend," she asked me with a chuckle.
i roll my eyes "i never said that i just wanna know why."

"i just wanna look at you dawn, that's all baby," billie says so softly i could melt.
billie continues to play her game as i continue to stare at her, thinking of how this will be a memory stored inside both of our heads.

i always thought of memories to be magic, even the bad ones. how they make you feel so much physically, how they make you regret, and laugh, and cry.

how they never leave, how you can't ever return them.

memories were magic not only because they made you feel but because they made you relive.

and that's what i want to do with each and every one of billie and i's memories; — relive until i've convinced myself i'm back in that moment in time until i've convinced myself i wasn't even in reality.

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