ꜱɪʟᴇɴᴛʟʏ ᴘᴇʀɪꜱʜ

lies revealed//tears shed

also not proof read 😊

june 20

omniscient

dawn lay in bed, her nose in a book as she waited for billie to arrive from running errands. she was tired, her body hurt, and she wanted nothing more than to just sleep yet she promised billie she'd be awake when she returned.

dawns health was deteriorating by the day, and she truly didn't know how much longer she could hold on. she thought of much it hurt to admit and how much it hurt to actually come to terms with death, and yet she still couldn't process it fully.

death isn't something easy, you cannot just be ready.
death was inevitable, yes but to know that you only have little to a month left is impossible not to freak out over.
dawn didn't want to die.
she keeps telling herself she's accepted it, she's accepted her fate and things of that matter but she hasn't. she hasn't fully been able to process the fact that she ultimately won't be here.

she hears the front door open and close.
she smiles to herself, hoping billie could get her mind off of the things she was thinking.

but billie still hadn't made her way to her room as she rest her head in her hands, elbows propped up on her kitchen counter.
she sucked up her tears, breathing shakily as her mind runs. she didn't understand dawn— she truly didn't.

"billie" dawn called out, wondering why she hadn't made her way to dawn yet.
billie sighs, shaking her head as she walked to her room.

she opened the door, unexpected tears in her eyes as she stood in front of dawn.
what dawn hadn't known is billie had the intention of picking up her medicine when she was done with her errands and when doing so they said that they had nothing for dawn.

so billie, thinking dawns mother had picked it up called her in hopes of retrieving it.
but ms.sahar had simply said "dawn didn't tell you? she doesn't need it."

from the sorrowful tone of dawns mother's voice, billie knew exactly what she meant.
so now as she stand in front of dawn, tears threatening to spill she couldn't help but feel incredibly defeated.

she had actually dreamed of their future almost every night since dawns surgery. she had smiled and basked in hopes and dreams of dawn and their set of twins.

yet she had been let down.

dawn doesn't notice billies tears immediately as she sits up and reaches out for her. billie backs away though, earning a questionable look from dawn.

"billie?" she says looking up to notice her tear-filled eyes.

billie breathed in shakily, "you told me you were getting better dawn."
dawns mouth opened slightly, she didn't know how billie had found out, how her lie had already caught up to her in such a short amount of time.

"billie," dawn says again, reaching out for her hand yet billie backs away even more.
"dawn. i'm your girlfriend, you tell me these things, okay? if we're going to have a relationship— a healthy one, you don't fucking lie about things like that."

billie was crying, not because of dawns lie but also the way dawn seemed to only think about herself sometimes.
dawn watched billie cry, unable to even stand up and reach her.

"i didn't want to make you upset," dawn says quietly "you were so happy i was 'getting better,' i didn't want to crush you."
dawn sighs before rubbing her hands down her face, her head pounding in pain.

"again with this not wanting to hurt me dawn— you don't get to choose how i feel! okay? — if i wanted to be upset then i would've and we could work it out together!"

dawn rested her face in her hands, listening to billies words. she knew she was right yet she didn't want to hear the words come out of billies mouth.

"come here billie," she says, reaching her arms out yet again "please?"

billie obliged, laying into dawns chest as she wrapped her arms around her. dawn hugged billie tight which only made her cry harder.
"i'm sorry," dawn says, rubbing billie arms back and forth, "i'm sorry, i'm sorry— i should've told you. i should've been honest, my love" she whispers.

billie sobs, her shoulders hiccuping with her as the only thought that persists in her mind was losing dawn.

her heart hurt, it felt heavy and full of so much that her chest began to cave in on itself.
"dawn," billie says through tears "what did the doctors say?"

"they told me there was nothing else they could do" dawn whispers.
billie sobs grow louder, she curls into herself out of instinct as she grips dawn tighter.

the sight of it almost made dawn cry herself.

"but i have another appointment soon okay? maybe they weren't sure" dawn says, trying her hardest to reassure billie.
but they both knew whatever new medicine they cooked up was not going to help something that had already grown far too much.

the thought of being alone runs through billies head as she practically chokes on her tears, heaving and coughing as more water pours out of her eyes.

dawn tells her to breathe, to calm down and it'll all be okay but billie doesn't listen.
she gets up and grabs her car keys,— leaving the room with salty cheeks and a pounding head.
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dawn lay in bed, remaining in the same spot as she'd been left in almost three hours ago.
billie still hadn't returned, texted dawn only once with the words "i need air. be back soon, i love you."

dawn just sat and thunk of herself and how much she hated to hurt the people she loved.
she punished herself, sitting in this spot, starving and dried tears cementing her face.

as she was always taught to discipline herself when she did things like this, she hadn't even moved to use the bathroom. she simply sat in her tears, hoping to cry herself to sleep.

as for billie, she was on her way back home, as she felt bad for leaving without a word. she simply needed air, so she cried and cried and cried even more, in her car, outside, to her friend— she couldn't help it.

she had basically got the confirmation of dawns death right from dawn herself and it hurt so bad she thought she might've exploded.
billie walks inside of the house, the clock reading 9.00, she hoped for dawn to not be awake as she didn't truly want to talk about anything at the moment.

she walked quietly into her. room where dawn lay facing away from the door to trick billie into thinking she was asleep.
billie shakes her head seeing dawns breathing body lying on its side, billie knew dawn was still awake.
she slips into bed behind dawn, holding her waist tightly as she kisses dawn's cheek before closing her eyes.

the couple didn't say a word though they both knew they were awake. they didn't speak about the argument before, nor dawns health, they just sat and hoped it'd be nothing tomorrow.

1199 words

also i lied, i don't know how much chapters are left, i just know this book is about to be over.