ꜱɪʟᴇɴᴛʟʏ ᴘᴇʀɪꜱʜ

the little things

this is so short because there's only like 10 chapters left

june 8

my head pounded as billie watched me take my medicine. the pills sat in her hand while she watched me take them each one by one.
she had woken me up out of my sleep to do this and i was more tired than anything.

i wanted to tell her that this medicine didn't matter, that i was still going to perish but i didn't want to crush her, especially so early in the morning.
she was just looking at me, with a small smile on her face, and goodness it made my heart hurt.

to see her so clueless and happy that i was "getting better" was painful.
after taking the last pill and swallowing, billie says "are you going to go back to sleep? i made breakfast."

i yawned "i'm tired, but i can eat," i say to her. she nods, leaving the room to grab whatever she made.
she comes back with those god-sent cinnamon rolls and a glass of juice.

she had a plate for herself as she sits down in front of me.
billie and i do this often; eat together. we eat breakfast every morning, even if it's just toast or cereal or even just some coffee.

billie says it's "good for the soul" but i just think she likes quality time. which isn't a problem, i mean to sit in blissful silence with the person you love, it's a dream, a blessing.

the way billie made me feel, made me think, was just so amazing and so beautiful that it almost made me cry.
billie makes me just want to better myself in every way possible, her aura was so warm and inviting that it made me want to be just that.
she made me appreciate the little things that life throws at you, the things you don't notice until you truly look.

i mean i could pick an infinite amount of things about her that i adored, and that was something i'd never felt about anyone.

"dawn" billie giggles after taking a sip from her cup, "you are literally just watching me eat right now and it's kind of freaking me out."
i laugh, not realizing id been staring at her this entire time.

"sorry," i say, "i was thinking."

she turns her head to the side before licking her lips, "about" billie drags out playfully. i shake my head, "you billie. it's always you— i don't know why you even ask."

billie giggles as i watch her cheeks turn a bright pink, she shys away from me as i laugh at her.
"stop," she says, standing up to take her plate to the kitchen.

i giggle as i watch her walk away.

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