Tease Me, Bella Beatrice

04:

Her lips moved just like the way I always like it. Gently but full of lust and romance at the same time. The way I always misses. The way only she can make me feel even weaker. That's what her lips makes me feel. I don't know how she does that, but it works.

A lot of unexplainable emotions.

Nagpatuloy ang halik. Naging mas malalim. Noong una ay ayaw ko pa dahil nabibigla ako ngunit sa kalaunan ay wala rin akong nagawa kung hindi ang pumikit. Ganoon ako karupok pagdating sa kaniya. Ganoon ako kadaling mapaamo. I let her kiss me even deeper while my hands are now holding her nape. My other hand is pulling her waist closer to mine not minding a few eyes that might see us in this situation.

I admit, I miss this tension. I miss these lustful butterflies inside my stomach.

"Please, be mine again." She said between her kisses that made me realize what we are doing at the moment. Doon ko rin napagtanto na hindi na normal ang nangyayari. The next thing I know is that she's already crying. My hands are still on hers while she's doing so. "Pierce, akin ka na lang ulit. Please?"

She continued sobbing a little. Yumukod pa para hindi ako tingnan sa mga mata ko dahil that's one thing for sure that we've talked about before. She doesn’t want me to look at her if she's crying because it makes her feel weak and all the things only in her mind. She doesn’t want me to look at her in states like these because it makes her even weaker. Lalo lang itong iiyak.

"Akin ka na lang ulit, please. Ako na lang ulit."

Napakagat ako sa labi ko. Hindi na naman ako makapag-isip nang matino kaya naman mas hinila ko na lang siya papalapit sa akin. I let her cry on my chest while embracing her whole. The cry went on for several minutes before I heard silence. Hinayaan ko lang siyang umiyak nang umiyak habang ako ay wala talagang alam na gagawin kung hindi damayan siya. What she said a while ago before she kissed me and cried made me realize something else.

Na tama ako sa lahat ng nasa isip ko.

She wants me back because she felt like she needed me. And that's enough reason for me to doubt her intention. If she probably told me she just really loves me and is regretting what both of us did, maybe it would have changed what's inside my mind.

Mahal niya lang ulit ako dahil kailangan niya ako.

That does not sit right with me at all. Nothing makes sense in that. Para lang niyang sinabing bumabalik siya sa akin dahil kailangan niya ako at hindi dahil mahal niya ako. If that makes sense, if that sounds wrong, it does not matter. Basta mahirap i-explain ang ibinibigay niyang palaisipan sa akin ngayon.

"Kailan ka pa dumating?" I calmly asked her.

"Ngayon lang." Hindi pa rin siya umaalis sa pagkakasiksik sa dibdib ko at hindi ko rin naman siya binibitawan sa yakap ko. "I just came from a red eye flight tapos nagdiretso na ako rito because I really want to see you that bad. Tapos pagdating ko rito papaiyakin mo lang pala ako."

"How about where you are staying? Kina Mama Lou pa rin?"