Tease Me, Bella Beatrice

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I cannot function for seconds. Naramdaman ko rin ang paglingon ni Gigi sa akin to see what my reaction is. Malugod ko iyong sinalubong as I calm myself. I eventually gave her a kiss on the lips and smiled. Kahit gaano pa ako kakabado ay nagawa kong kumalma para mag-isip nang tama. Kahit gaano ako kagulat sa nakita ko ay nagawa ko pa ring isipin ang mararamdaman ni Gigi dahil alam na alam kong ang reaksyon ko ay malaking bagay para sa kaniya.

"Don't even think about it." I whispered at her.

Even the most successful and strongest women get jealous and overthink, too. I know that she won't tell me about it, but I need to make sure she receives the right amount of assurance I keep on giving her because she deserves it. Matapos iyon ay tumingin na kami parehas kay Bella. She is on her normal smile. It seems like she is not affected at all and that is a good sign. But at the same time, I cannot forget what her intentions are. What the last conversation we shared is about. Hindi ko lang lubos maisip na pupunta siya rito para mag-audition sa movie adaptation ng librong isinulat ko.

"I am a toxic bitch, and you are aware. I do clapback and I like making you feel uncomfortable and pathetic by loving me so much, Pierce. That's my thing that makes me irresistible to you. You are weak for me. Always will be."

I can still remember every word she said that night. She is teasing me to the highest level. She of all people knows who the real Bella Beatrice is on the same book. She is taking advantage of it. She is taking advantage of everything she knows she can possibly ruin.

"Tell me what you want me to do. Kahit alin. I've probably done it even before it became a physical book." Makahulugan niyang sambit.

The looks on her eyes are vile. Her intentions are purely giving me the vibe she's not going to do any good but just justice to her own personal intentions. I am starting to hate her more and more. The fact that she will do me this far and dirty is not fair at all.

"Hmm, I see." Si Gigi. "You seem to have a lot of things about this role. You decide which part you want to do, and we'll decide if you are fit on this role."

"Hmm. I have a lot in mind. I cannot decide that fast but here. The part when Bella and Pierce are about to end it for good. The time when I, I mean when they were brokenhearted for the decisions they are about to make. I think it is on the part where Pierce will finally let go and how Bella was devastated by that. So, here's how their conversation goes. Umiiyak ang eksenang iyon."

Everyone got silent. Whoever let her inside this room may have bad blood with me or something. Hindi naman siguro hipokrito ang mga tao rito kung wala silang alam tungkol kay Bella Beatrice. Sa Bella Beatrice na nakasulat sa bawat pahina ng librong gagawing palabas. Sa Bella Beatrice na dati kong girlfriend. That is maybe the same reason why their moves are so calculated this time.

Seryoso akong nakatingin kay Bella sa ngayon. Naramdaman kong tinatanggal ni Gigi ang kamay ko sa kamay niya pero hindi ko iyon hinayaan. Mas hinigpitan ko ang pagkakahawak doon para malaman niyang hindi ko iyon bibitawan. I can see her reaction from my peripheral vision. I can see that she's serious by the cold look she is giving me. Kilalang-kilala ko ang isang ito.

"Did you think I wanted this?" Pag-uumpisa ni Bella.