Chaos didn't text me again and I was relieved.
Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit ganun na lang ang naging reaksyon ko. Siguro kasi hindi pa 'ko handang ipakilala si Chaos kay Apollo. Maybe because I'm not ready to face what might happen. Alam ko naman, I am over thinking. That was a given fact. Hindi ko lang kasi talaga maalis sa isip ko kung anong mga pwedeng mangyari.
Apollo will get jealous. That is also a given fact. No need to be hypothetical.
I don't want to do any of that. Is it wrong to protect our relationship from things that might complicate it? I will do everything to prevent it, that's for sure. I will do everything to protect Apollo. But then, Chaos is right. Chaos made things easier for me, easier for me to say that I am a coward. I don't like taking risks and only when I loved Apollo when I knew the meaning of it. I've probably taken every risk I can get to be with Apollo.
"Don't forget to bring something to cover yourself up. The sun is too hot. I don't want you getting sunburned." He said while walking his way out from the bathroom, already wearing his trunks and a surfboard stuck in his arms. He went to me and kissed me on the forehead, "I will wait for you at the Cabbana, alright?"
I nodded and continued fixing my things. The risk is worth it.
I stayed in my room and eventually finished after 30 minutes. I was already wearing my swimsuit and a see-through kimono to cover up.
I saw him sitting in our lounge while reading a book. He looked so relax and handsome. I went to sit beside him and found a comfortable position. This place really is amazing. I wonder. Paano nalalaman ni Apollo ang mga ganitong klase lugar? The last time, we went into a private open garden and we went to have a picnic there. Like this place, that garden was magical.
"How'd you know about this place?" I asked not taking my eyes off of the children that are playing ball at the seaside.
I felt him looked at me, "By wandering."
"You find beautiful places like this by wandering? Can't you be more specific than that?"
He laughed, "Always eager for answers." I stuck my tongue at him. "I knew this place because Cecilia once went here for a friend's party."
I studied his face for a while. Cecilia. Every time he mentions his stepmother's name, it gives me little daggers in my heart. I don't know why. Maybe because I still wish for sympathy from his stepmom rather than hatred. I could never understand her but then again, I wouldn't know how she felt adopting his husband's son from another woman. She may have a reason, but I still think she's being irrational. Apollo wasn't the one to blame. It's his husband who committed.
He put his hand on the top of mine, "You're thinking about it again. Stop it." His thumbs softly playing with my hand.
"I just..." My hands reaching for his face.
He leaned on my hand and kissed my palm, closing his eyes and sighed deeply, "This was supposed to be one hell of a weekend."
I smiled. Of course, one hell of a weekend. I should stop being emotional every time I get a glimpse of his rocky road life. Should. Should try. "I'm with you, aren't I?" I pinched his cheeks.
He nodded.
"Then this is already one hell of a weekend."
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