I was fidgeting.
He told me to meet him today with no other instructions, just a simple let's meet text and a location attached to the message. I admit I looked like a pity fuck but I couldn't care less. I was a pathetic human being. A worthless piece of shit. I deserve all the hurt in the world for hurting Caly. A son of a bitch. I deserve to be ruined in any way possible.
I bit my lip trying to collect myself before he gets here. I tried to fix myself this morning but I can't help but feel worse. I haven't slept last night, not even a minute because the guilt was consuming me. The inner demons inside of me enjoyed eating the culpability that is living within me. I was a sick man.
I was a messy fuck. My polo which was the least formal clothes that I chose to wear. I didn't even try to hide the bags that was visibly waving at all people that were looking at me. It wouldn't take a generous genie to know what other people think of me right now. Who on earth was that?
I was trying to divert myself and found the centerpiece that is in front of me rather entertaining when I heard the bells at the entrance of this cafe signaling a guest that has entered. I looked at it and I was right.
He's here.
I watched him look at the people who were sited until his sight came to me and he stopped. He walked to me and I was still staring at him when he sat on the chair in front of me. He looked at me too although the only difference was one wrong move from me and I'm done. He was murderous - I see that.
I cleared my throat and we remained calm. Looked like calm but the truth is I was just waiting for him to punch the fuck out of me if that makes sense. I would gladly accept all his physical assault because if he doesn't, I would do it. To myself.
"The fuck do you think you are, Herrero." He spat the last name.
I gulped the clog that made its way into my throat. "Listen to me because I don't have time enough time for your bullshit. I will say this once and I don't like repeating myself."
I matched his stare. "I don't want you near Caly. Ever. Again."
Silence.
"You see, when I found out about you and how she tried to hide you inside her home when we first met, I never liked you. But then I thought to myself, this fucker must have meant a lot for her to protect him from me. This bastard must have been a gentle bug for my Caly for her to accept him dearly. The moment I saw you, I know you know how much I would have loved to beat you into pulp. But I didn't because Caly cares for you. And when you get hurt, I know it'll hurt her too. I don't want that." I knew that.
"But the moment her tears fell when she saw you, I thank you for that. I thank you for breaking her heart. I thank you for bringing the tears to her eyes. I thank you for ruining her trust to other people that she thought cared for her just as much as she invested. Because the moment she felt all of that, she gave me a sign. She gave me a signal. She gave me a permission to destroy you in any way that I can and man, " He chuckled humorlessly, "What I'd want to do to you right now..." He clenched his jaw and leaned his head to the right.
He looked like a devil in a white shirt. "Are you religious?"
I didn't answer him. "'Cause if you are, you better start praying. And if you aren't? I'll make sure you won't be able to call all the saints in heaven, I'll make sure you're dead even before you say your god's name. You understand?"
I remained mute.
He stood up and stopped to my right, "Just so you know, Caly cried the whole night. Does the thought of it make you feel good?" I whipped my head to look at him at the mention of Caly's name.
When suddenly he grabbed the glass of water that was in front of me, "Drink up. Hell doesn't have that much water."
And then he left.
I stared at the table. My eyes were unfocused. I leaned my head against my hand and exhaled shakily.
My Caly... I'm so sorry.
* * *
Fucker.
I closed her door when I entered. I heard a sob. Shit.
I entered her room and saw her sister standing in front of her as she cries on her knees. I immediately ran to her and pulled her close to me. I looked at her sister who was not looking at her direction trying to divert her attention to anything other than Caly.
I glared at her. "For fuck sake, Leave!"
She looked at me, fear evident in her eyes when she tried to move past me and eventually looked at her sister breaking down in between my arms. She shook her head and ran to the door. I heard the door closed and that's when I looked at Caly. I rocked her in my arms and hushed her.
Nobody is going to hurt you anymore, baby. I'm so sorry you have to deal with all their shits.
She was having trouble trying to breathe again when I grabbed her knees, put my arms around it and lift her up bridal style. I went to seat on her couch and settled her in my lap. I brushed her hair gently and kissed her forehead. She was still shaking and it almost hurt me physically.
"I love you," I whispered in her ears.
I will do everything for you, baby.
Anything. For you Caly Sebastian.
