Hope | j.black

pain.

Do you ever get told, don't date in your friend group or a person from work because if it doesn't work out. It gets awkward, like really quickly? All of that is true, for those out there who haven't experienced a relationship yet.

I tried to keep to a routine as much as possible, Sam agreed to do some training with me on the daily. To keep me in the fighting spirit and for him to be there for me when I wanted to rant. Finishing one of my daily trainings, I stood in Sams kitchen as he passed me a glass of water.

"Have you heard from Bella?" Sam asked as I leant against his kitchen counter. I shook my head.

"Nah, nothing. Hope she's still human though, kinda want at least another day of human Bella. To keep that memory there, you know?" He smiled at me softly, he knew where I was coming from. Hearing a clash and bang come roaring into the house, I looked over my shoulder. Seeing the boys push and shove one another , I smiled as they all spotted me.

"Hope!" They cheered, seeing a staring Jacob in the midst of them. Taking in a deep breath, I kept my focus on the boys.

"Hey guys." I replied as Paul and Embry came to my side, bringing me into a hug. I hid in Paul's chest as Sam dragged Seth and Jacob outside. Paul rubbed my back as he asked.

"You ok?" He asked, as Emily joined us. Placing a hand on my shoulder, I looked to her as I still had my head on Paul's chest.

"Want me to take you home?" She questioned, nodding. I followed her out to her car, as she drove me home. I sat there in silence, I hated how it has become. It use to be so joyful and carefree at Sam and Emily's place, now it's become a place where I have to walk on egg shells with the fear of Jacob popping around the corner.

Walking through the doors of my home, tears rolled down my face as I saw dad standing there waiting for me. His arms opened up, welcoming me into a hug. Feeling his warm and comforting embrace, Charlie thanked Emily for bringing me home.

Feeling my world shrink, I smiled and observed my father spend time with Sue Clearwater. How the house filled with more laughter, the cooking smelt much better and Dad begun to glow. Resting my head on the back of the couch as Dad and Sue danced in the kitchen, Dad spotted me watching. Mouthing to me, are you ok? Giving him a nod, he raised an eyebrow at me as I raised both of mine in return.

Hearing a ding in my lap, looking down at the screen. My heart rate picked up as I saw Jacobs name pop up on the screen, my heart shattered as I read his message. Please talk to me hope, please let me prove to you. That you mean the world to me. Jumping in my skin as Dad snatched the phone from my hands, he grabbed ahold of my hand. Dragging me to my feet as I shook my head.

"No no." I dug my feet into the carpet.

"If she's making me dance, so are you." Dad said as he spun me under his arm, laughing as I almost tripped on my own shoelaces. Dad brought me into his chest as we swayed side to side, hearing the music play in the background. I closed my eyes as a tear fell down my cheek, I focused my energy on Sue and Charlie. Continuing the night with songs and dancing, I crashed hard into a pit of burnt out emotion on the couch. Feeling a kiss on my forehead, with a comforting heat, realising it was a blanket. I sighed into a deep sleep, where my mind worked over time.